Did you suffer from cognitive dissonance in you childhood?

Do you suffer from cognitive dissonace? It can be very painful to live differant from your intenal beliefs.  Brene Brown discusses cognitive dissoance in her book, "Atlas of the Heart". She uses an example from a dooms day prediction and the subsequent human justification rather than logical thought that followed this line of thought and belief. 

Cognitive Dissoance was a bit part of my childhood and young adult life and led to a lot of pain. In this experience, you true, authentic self is not recognized and a lot of the pain is rejecting your self. I chose to live in this condition for a long time instead of embracing my self and its beliefs. Even as my actions changed I continued to put myself down and jusge myself based on beliefs formed in childhood around salvation and the church. I wanted to please my mom so badly. He have her approve of me and yet I didn't realize that it is impossible to please a toxic, manipulative, highly religions person. Not only do they have special rules that must be followed but all the rules are "salvational issues". So many of my friend began breaking free in their 20's but I waited until my late forties to begin finding myself. I think it was only raising my children that led to me define what I actually believed.

I hope you enjoy the stories from my childhood.  I am only able to do what I do today because of clearing fear and old beliefs of judgement and lack through Theta Healing Techniques and energy healing. I year ago, I could not have channeled my higher self or read tarot publicly for fear of judgement by my family and friends. The Salem Witch trials are still very real in verbal rather than physical abuse. 

In this podcast, I channel Raya my highest self and spiritual guide. We are all one. My topic is surrender to the unplanned miracle! Every week, I share a topic that I am led to share. I don't write a script ahead of time and just know that she will guide me.

Blessed Be

Madelyn