Control, Trauma, and the Parts that Protect: Behind the Scenes of My MDMA Therapy Session

What happens when the parts of you that have always needed control finally let go? In this deeply personal episode, Seryna takes us inside her MDMA-assisted therapy session—a seven-hour journey into memory, tenderness, and truth. With vulnerability and grounded wisdom, she unpacks how trauma shaped her survival self, what it meant to surrender control, and how that single session began rewriting her nervous system’s oldest stories.

This isn’t a how-to guide. It’s a firelit reflection on what it means to be held, to soften, and to finally believe you’re worthy of care just because you exist.

 

This Episode Is Perfect For You If...

• You crave support but feel uncomfortable asking for help
• You identify with being hyper-independent, high-functioning, or always in control
• You’re curious about MDMA-assisted therapy and what it feels like
• You’ve been doing deep healing work but still feel stuck in old patterns
• You’re ready to meet the younger parts of yourself with love instead of judgment

 

"That tightly wound, stressed and frustrated person I sometimes become is not my truth. This love—this is me."

 

In This Episode

• (04:10) Why MDMA was the right choice for healing complex trauma

• (12:45) Understanding the survival self and how it’s born from unmet needs

• (22:30) What happens when control goes offline and the protectors step aside

• (36:00) Being held, witnessed, and feeling safe to be little

• (47:50) How deep integration work helps rewire your nervous system

• (58:20) Loss, grief, and why the most loving thing we can do is receive

• (1:10:40) The truth that lives underneath trauma and why you are worth knowing

 

"Support is beautiful and, more than that, I am worthy and deserving of support without having to earn it."

 

About The Unshakeable Self

The Unshakeable Self is your guide to building unwavering confidence and authentic self-trust. In each episode, we explore practical strategies and powerful insights to help you break free from self-doubt, embrace your true potential, and create a life that aligns with your deepest values. Whether you're navigating career transitions, relationships, or personal growth, you'll find the tools and inspiration to stand firmly in your power.

 

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If you're curious about the protective parts of you and how they shaped your story, take the Survival Self Archetype Quiz. This isn’t just insight. It’s a gentle gateway back to the truest version of you.

 

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