“I was just left fighting this invisible thing inside me, the root of which I didn’t know.”
Producers: Whit Missildine
Episode Summary: A woman grows up with an idyllic childhood in Scotland, when a phobia of mysterious origin begins consuming her thoughts and eventually her future
Today’s episode featured Rachel Balcarek. You can find out more about Rachel on Instagram @bearscenario.
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Content/Trigger Warnings: emetophobia, agoraphobia, panic attacks, depression, explicit language
Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper
Music Bed: Sk”Cylinder Four/Five” – Chris Zabriskie
Services
If you or someone you know is struggling with the effects of trauma or mental illness, please refer to the following resources.
National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255
National Alliance on Mental Illness: 1-800-950-6264
National Sexual Assault Hotline (RAINN): 1-800-656-HOPE (4673)
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