Track 46: Trueform Castiel

Welcome to episode forty-six of the Mixtape Book Club Podcast.

In this episode, Mal and Ellen welcome author aishitara to discuss Destiel fics featuring Castiel’s true form. Fics include aishitara’s I Carry Your Heart With Me, So Says The Sword by komodobits, every light he cannot see by intothesilentland, A Constellation of Wishes by Destina
plus many more!

You can find our Mixtape Book Club Ao3 collection here, containing the stories we’ve discussed on the podcast so far.

As always, Mixtape Book Club contains fic spoilers, swearing and discussion of adult topics. Please listen at your own discretion, with attention paid to any little ears that might be nearby!

A transcript is available for this episode.

Our guest: aishitara

Nessa pubishes their Destiel works under aishitara on ao3.

We previously featured Nessa’s fic, Dragon in the Cup, in our Creature Cas episode.

Also mentioned: What is Grief if Not Love Persevering (3,774, T)

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Featured fics (timestamps in brackets)

I Carry Your Heart With Me by aishitara (00:16:40)
Published for DCBB 2021, 27k words, E
Art by verobatto

“Dreamin’ about anything good?” Dean asks instead of letting those other words out, because if he admits it out loud right now he might spontaneously combust.

“Yes.” Castiel gives him a sidelong glance. The corner of his mouth is tilted in a smug smile. “Something very good.”

“Oh yeah?” Dean’s fingers are tingling. Are his fingers supposed to be tingling?

“Yes,” Cas says again. His smile turns endearingly shy as he adds: “It seems I can’t stop thinking about kissing you, even when I’m asleep.”

every light he cannot see by intothesilentland (01:07:50)
Published in 2021, 8500 words, Not rated
Art by keylimedean

Here in Purgatory, Castiel cannot keep his true form tethered to his vessel. He’s a beacon of light for monsters to flock toward, he’s a danger to those around him—especially Dean—and with each passing day, he has less and less hope of making it through a gateway back to earth, a gateway designed for humans.

But if he can take Dean safely there, he will—all the while hiding his true form from a human he knows will be disgusted by it.

After all, Castiel has always been willing to bleed for Dean.

And he bleeds,

and he bleeds,

and he bleeds.

A Constellation of Wishes by Destina (01:02:00)
Published in 2022, 8500 words, E

Dean builds a little house in Heaven, because it’s easier than saying what he feels. And then he invites Cas to come home.

So Says The Sword by komodobits (00:40:40)
Published for DBCC 2017, 85k words, E
Art by kayanem: https://kayanem.tumblr.com/post/167025583569/art-for-the-wonderful-cuddlebabies-aka

The briefing was simple: ‘Stand guard over the Michael Sword until the battle is ready to commence. Await further instructions.’

Castiel doesn’t mind working security duty; he was briefed shortly after the initial salvation of the Sword from the pit, and again before taking up his position. He knows what to do. However, it’s easy to forget that the green room isn’t real. Time moves differently there, the space ever-changing to make a prison of mountains, cathedrals, salt flats, orchards, and whatever Castiel was led to believe about Heaven’s greatest weapon—Dean Winchester is something entirely unexpected.

Other recommended fics and links (01:08:27)

The “9-1-1 podcast” Ellen failed to mention the name of in the outtakes is That WeeWoo Show.

Other fics mentioned during discussion:

• Addicted To You by Ltleflrt (120,480 words, E)
• the cheapest room in the house by biggaybenny (89,336, E)
• And This, Your Living Kiss by opal_bullets (57k, M)
• Four Letter Word for Intercourse podfic, by bendingsignpost, read by NerdyNerdenstein (DustyLCanon)
• Making It Up As We Go podcast Spotify feed – podfics read by NerdyNerdenstein

A selection of Trueform artworks:

• Lizlee’s Trueform!Cas series – first part here (via Tumblr)
• Mishoru’s Eldritch Horror (via instagram)
• Missartsy’s “I’ll just wait here then… for you” (via Instagram)
• Missartsy’s “Dean sees the warrior of God” (via Instagram)
• Silverdrws “we cheer for true form Cas” (via Instagram)
• Mishoru’s “new art” (via Instagram)
• The_friendly_pigeon true form Cas series (via Instagram)
• Madikats_vision’s “please, be not afraid” (via Instagram)
• Sugashook’s “a doodle of Castiel’s true form”
• Mischieviem “Hello Dean” (via Tumblr)

Other fics:

• Wavelength-gasm by Mumble_Bee (11,411, E) – Fuck or die
• Walk With Me in Hell by Duckyboos (1,103, T) – Cas arrives in hell
• The Law of Equivalent Exchange by awed_frog (60,869, M) – Cas meets Dean and Sam through reincarnations
• Full of Grace by ilovehowyouletmefall (11,399, E) – pwp consentacles
• The Greatest of These by DoctorProfessorSong (9,694, T) – Post-15.18
• an empty house is not a home by sidewinder (143,247, E)
• Without a Trace by MalMuses (113,650, E)
• Everyone Is Trying to Get to the Bar by Balder12 (8,111, E)
• Exist Without Fear by whelvenwings (2,833, Gen) – Bunker fic
• Foundations by rhinestoneangels (6,236, T)
• Resonance by Mayalaen (7,071, E) – Case fic
• Below My Feet by dreamingstarkly (2,724, T) – S8
• The Reach of Human Sense by perilously (4,524, E) – Established relationship
• adam bites the apple by sicsempertyrannis (10,943, T)
• living dying words by fleeceframe (6,604, E) – Finale fix-it
• nightlight by fleeceframe (12,757, Gen) – Non-binary Cas
• if there is any meaning in the fate that pulled us together by orphan (13,720, M)
• to share the night by vaudelin (1,211, Gen)
• Be Not Afraid by Astra_Wards (136,481, M)
• Lullabies and Prayers by notebooksandlaptops (2,293, Gen)
• I Can’t Quit You, Baby by Nepenthene (20,683, T) – Alt Season 9 ish
• If I Shiver by Amelia_Clark (3,919, M)
• Marked Earth by BurningTea (61,352, Unrated) – S10, Attack Dog Spell fic
• the noise of stars by depugnare (2,898, T)
• In Love With Every Form by sobsicles (2,561, Gen)
• Stay Until Dawn by Wolves_and_Starlight (3,326, T)
• Outlast by Jdragon122 (83,381, E) – Case fic, game inspired
• Withheld by chamaenerion (3,986, M)
• Back in Black by Tierra469 (17,395, E) – S8 rewrite
• A Little Extra by taybow48 (26,142, T)
• Meet Me True by WhoIsWren (3,678, T)
• My Tentacle Romance by anyrei & queerwolf (?, E) – Smut with…no wordcount? There are words. AO3 is broken
• Angel by avide_reader (3,108, Unrated) – MOC fic
• Love and Longing in Lebanon by piesexuality, things_renew_themselves (9,094, M)
• together, for eternity by breathingneon (2,756, T)
• How Empty of Me to be so Full of You by HeartofStars (14,515, T) – Stanford era fic
• Ordinary, Until It’s Not by shroomiethedoomie (2,184, T)
• Indeana Jones and the Tear of Pele by Hiding_Amaranth (32,679, E) – Canon Hawaii Fic post S11
• holy, holy, holy by dicklessthewonderclown (2,981, E)
• The Beautiful Light of You by Face_the_Strange (965, Gen)
• Oxytocin by spirithorse (29,357, M)
• Until the Moss Had Reached Our Lips by an_ardent_rain (20,543, M) – Fix it fic
• The Forest of Souls by SillyBlue (31,574, T) – au, creature Cas
• “Sweet Hunter Dean meets…” by tomatora (6,223, T) – post-canon
• Maybe not a comedy (according to Jack), but he likes the happy ending by seidenapfel (67,602, M) – Spaaaace au
• The Beholder by imogenbynight (2,046, G)

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