I don’t think I want another kid

2026-03-03

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I always assumed I’d have two kids.It was just one of those things I’d decided in my twenties... a nice, neat vision of what my future family would look like.And then I actually had a child.Now I find myself genuinely surprised by how strong my reaction is when friends announce they’re having a second. It’s not judgement. It’s not even fear. It’s the very clear realisation that going back to the beginning (especially on my own) feels like a life I don’t think I want.Maybe I’ll change my mind. Maybe I won’t.But right now, this is where I'm at....

I always assumed I’d have two kids.

It was just one of those things I’d decided in my twenties... a nice, neat vision of what my future family would look like.

And then I actually had a child.

Now I find myself genuinely surprised by how strong my reaction is when friends announce they’re having a second.

It’s not judgement. It’s not even fear.

It’s the very clear realisation that going back to the beginning (especially on my own) feels like a life I don’t think I want.

Maybe I’ll change my mind. Maybe I won’t.

But right now, this is where I'm at.

If you're grappling with the same question, I'd love to hear from you!

This podcast was recorded on the lands of the Wangal people, of the Eora Nation.

I pay my respects to Elders past and present.

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