Drugs Wrecked My Life -the Definitive Guide

Major suboxone withdrawal on my horizon

I have a doctor who after 10 years of heavy dose of Suboxone due to personal reasons I did not violate his own policies my records will show that this doctor is trying to hurt me I'm going to document everything hopefully Friday I can start I'm not in full withdrawal yet I still have some and I will be able to have them before my withdrawal actually starts I say in a week or two but I will start to prepare familiarize myself with this process try to build some clientele hopefully you can help me get this out we can get this doctor removed bad person any doctor with this power that is willing to do this to somebody is fucking dangerous so stick with me I will make it better than last time I won't disappear this has to be documented he must be held accountable this must be picked up and go viral for anything to be done to him

I just can't give up.

I cannot allow people. Who believe that I am not worthy or I don't have what it takes to be anything. Let alone a successful communicator. I'm pretty sure they told. Eric Clapton you couldn't sing. I'm pretty sure they told Robert Plant the same thing. I'm believe they told Adele. She's too fat now. She's so I'm really going to plead the Fifth On that one.

You never know who anybody really is based on an unworthy handle created 4c reasons u couldn't know

I can't imagine that I've literally asked for help in the couple people who replied only because of a public feed that people see so the DM me that was sent to me a couple times and then in capital letters E I don't understand all this so much so that I don't even know how to post this so somebody other than myself I was on cloud nine not because someone of status wanted to help me or talk to me or made me feel like I am worth it I thought that the DM instructions were such an honor and meant so much but as my intelligence and deductive skills and reality facing nature they wanted the DM so they could fucking ignore me privately delete me and then it would never happen not knowing I think perhaps just the weight police do knowing nothing of a situation judging you solely upon your past which is in can be a good guy but they disregard the 22 years 30 years you haven't done anything wrong you are a potential even if .001 percent risk to their image which really I I have learned that the only do publicly because of the recognition and that's why it's always with children or sick or if the public can use sympathize and empathize with them I've called the radio station I couldn't be more serious and I got laughed at made fun of and it was fucking devastating and you know what's worse no one will read this no one gives a fuck and I don't even know where to put it so these wonderful helpful giving tolerance Souls who reached out to me and gave me purpose even if it's only a couple hours we're simply trying to sweep me under a carpet where they could block me because I'm not worth helping because they won't get anything from it except teaching me maybe how to go about really starting a podcast judging me as if I am fucking Ryan Hoppe and have studied this filled my entire life and this is the best I'll ever get hence bringing them nothing so they would help me not realizing who I actually am and if I straightened out my father's worth about a hundred million had they known that my fucking Twitter feed would be explode Oprah fucking Winfrey would try to help me but they don't realize if I clean and get right I am worth more than all of them and that simple status forever not be status but B without question who I am a loser worthless I am shocked people won't help anybody and yet I'm a dummy who I've given away so much I'm totaly embarrass to say.

That was close focus focus focus

This is just an update touching of the base if you will just to let you know that I'm not going to give up on me or you but mostly me LOL this is serious and I I had a couple roadblocks I wanted to apologize if I was a stuttering fool in the intro I had just understood so much overwhelming shit that I didn't realize existed I never thought of it in my life so I thought however it has been destroying my entire existence for 30 years and when you know something it's different and I promise you I'm not sure that we are even close to understanding the depth of addiction and mental illness certain combinations whether it be combinations of the drugs in particular you're self-medicating with or perhaps you happen to have this disorder in that disorder and you're taking this prescribed and that not prescribed and you have just created a Bonafide lunatic so this is me trying to be accountable has no one cared or seem too and I felt sorry for myself no one wants to hear me so I was going to say the hell with it and then someone sent me something you're not funny and his where are most of you guys are going to say..... NOPE..... I have oh boy this is embarrassing I swear to you I'm not crazy and I can't explain this either and maybe we'll figure it together but it's the best way I can make you understand somehow I'm not seeing an angel or God somehow I was able to access something in my subconscious while I was sleeping and when I woke it was as if I had been downloaded some information that filled in massive unknown imagined problems that I have been not even dealing with because they weren't there my mom died when I was young I didn't it's just assumed that's what screwed me up but that's not even close

I will hold no documentation Back The Good the Bad the Ugly

Immediately my last night recording was to be buried forever but that would be my addiction speaking I will bear my soul I will let it all out no matter how ridiculous it is it's important to document the damage the damage and mental capacity rationale producing it fux you up