In Totality with Megan Ashley

EP 106: Fix Your Gaze on Jesus: How to Stop Sinking in Fear & Doubt | In Totality with Megan Ashley

This week, I'm reflecting with the team on my experience witnessing Jackie and Jordan practice obedience during the Blameless concert weekend that took place in February. We're talking about what it means to fix our gaze on Jesus when fear, doubt, and uncertainty can cause a hesitation to obey. In Matthew 14, we see Peter walk on water only while his eyes are fixed on Jesus, but the moment he focuses on the wind and the waves, he begins to sink. And honestly, it's the same way for so many of us when it comes to trusting God. But Jesus is so kind. When Peter began to sink, he called out to Jesus, and Jesus reached for him. And He does the same for us.Join the conversation as we explore what it looks like to trust God in the midst of fear. We discuss the tension of wanting to believe the Lord is faithful while battling uncertainty, and how faith is often not the absence of fear, but the practice of fixing our gaze on God in everything we do, until we see our complete assignment through to the end.This episode is for anyone who feels like they’ve been sinking under the weight of anxiety, doubt, or fear and it's keeping you from saying Yes to the Lord. I pray this reminds you that He is not distant in our struggle. He is near, steady, and faithful.See Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

EP 105: Remain in My Love (John 15): The Secret to Joyful Obedience

In Totality Podcast is back for a season 3 return this week! This season is anchored in John 15, where Jesus says, “Remain in My love.” And so I want to slow down with you and allow scripture to call us back to something we forget so easily: joyful obedience doesn’t come from striving, it comes from abiding.So many of us are trying to follow God from a place of pressure, like we have to earn closeness, approval, or prove we’re “doing enough.” But Jesus doesn’t invite us into performance. He invites us into relationship. Into a life where we stay connected to Him, and the fruit comes from finding Joy in our lives with Him, not from dreaded works. As I read and reflect, I talk about what this can look like in real life: when you’ve been “doing all the right things” but you’re losing joy, so your relationship with God starts to feel transactional. We talk about identity, living as sons and daughters, not as servants, and what it means to receive His love before you try to get your life together on your own.This episode is for anyone who feels tired of trying… tired of striving… tired of carrying their walk with God like a weight. If you’ve been asking, “Why does obedience feel so hard?” or “Why do I feel far even when I’m doing everything?” I pray this reminds you: you don’t need to try harder, just abide in Him.See Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

EP 104: 1 Thessalonians 5: Remember Who You Are (Children of Light)

This week, I’m sharing another special moment from the live podcast back in October, where I’m reading through 1 Thessalonians 5, and letting Scripture bring us back to what we forget most easily: who we are in Christ.This passage is such a steady reminder that we are children of light. We’re not called to live in fear, anxiety, or spiritual numbness, but to stay awake, anchored, and strengthened in the Lord. As I read, I share what this could look like in real life: choosing patience with one another, leaning into community, praying with and for each other, and learning how to give thanks in all things… even when it’s not easy.This special episode is for anyone who’s felt discouraged in their growth, frustrated with the process of patience, or tempted to forget the miracle of what God already did on the cross.If sanctification feels slow and obedience feels heavy, I pray this reminds you: God is faithful, He is keeping you, and your identity has already been secured.See Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

EP 103: Best of Season 2: 2025 Recap

It’s been a full year of deep conversations, quiet revelations, and holy tension.In this special “Best of Season 2” episode of In Totality, we revisit the most powerful moments from 2025, the raw confessions, and Spirit-led wisdom that shaped us. From surrendering plans to embracing stillness, this recap walks through what God revealed in the waiting, the stretching, and the refining.Whether you’ve been with us since the beginning or you’re just joining, we pray these highlights remind you:You’re not late. You’re right on time.You’re not alone. You’re being led.And even when it’s quiet, God is still speaking.Here’s to what He’s done, and what’s still to come. I look forward to kicking off Season 3 in the coming months.See Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

EP 102: Laying Down Idols in the Hidden Places ft. Dinorah Peña

In this week’s episode of In Totality, I’m back with my girl Dinorah Peña for Part 2 of our conversation.We talk through the moments after the “yes”, when obedience is heavy, sanctification feels slow, and trusting God isn’t as simple as it sounds. We share about the struggle of delighting in the Lord, turning away from pride, and depending on the Holy Spirit during times of anxiousness.This conversation is full of raw truth for anyone in a season of obedience without clarity. If you’ve ever asked, “Why is this walk still so hard?” Or felt alone in your becoming, we pray this reminds you:You’re not behind. You’re being refined. God is still with you, even now.See Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.