The PSYOP Of Death And Other Soul Growth Stories With Jeff Berwick & The Bee Lady

2026-01-20

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I AM OKAY. For most of my life, this was me, saying ‘fuck off, don’t come near me, don’t ask questions, don’t interfere’. I’ve got this. Watching my dad go into rages, losing my company, crashing my boat, being pretty much a high-functioning alcoholic for many years… No, I don’t feel anything. I am okay. I was still searching though. Because others, like my wife, told me I wasn’t okay, and deep inside there was a voice that insisted there were better things out there for me. A better life in a higher ...

I AM OKAY.

For most of my life, this was me, saying ‘fuck off, don’t come near me, don’t ask questions, don’t interfere’. I’ve got this. Watching my dad go into rages, losing my company, crashing my boat, being pretty much a high-functioning alcoholic for many years… No, I don’t feel anything. I am okay.

I was still searching though. Because others, like my wife, told me I wasn’t okay, and deep inside there was a voice that insisted there were better things out there for me. A better life in a higher world. A limitless me.

It took damn near killing myself and two Ayahuasca journeys for me to finally hear it:

LET OTHERS HELP YOU.

As soon as I accepted that, that I wasn’t alone, that I didn’t need to be alone to be strong, my life changed completely.

That simple shift sits at the heart of deep healing work and soul recovery. Which is what I chat about in today’s video with an old friend, Maryam Henein, a deep-dive anti-mainstream investigative journalist who I first got to know as the Bee Lady because of her amazing documentary, Vanishing of the Bees (2010).

Recently, she released a book about Operation George Floyd that uncovers scripted talking points, informants, sting operations, cartel involvement, hush money, government and media conspiracy, corruption, obfuscation, and a web of lies that exists just under the surface of the media narrative we all know are lies.

Unfortunately, like many of our friends and past and present speakers at Anarchapulco, Maryam is being cancelled for being unafraid to point out the truth. So, if you’d like to support Maryam in the amazing work she’s doing, GET THAT BOOK and DONATE a few dollars so we can get her back to Anarchapulco next month! Cash, bitcoin (BTC) or monero (XMR) accepted. (See the links in this video)

Back to our interview, we talked about doing iboga and my recent trip to Egypt with Chistopher Malchizedek and the Flamekeepers and how I experienced an incredible reimagining of something I had completely forgotten about that had happened in Los Angeles years ago. The story includes Iboga-diarrhea, XTC, Speed, and needing help in a washroom in Egypt, and ends with letting your past traumas go.

By the way, iboga is probably the best shadow work you can do. And, by that I mean consciously exploring the parts of yourself that you learned to hide, suppress, deny, or disconnect from in order to survive.

The term itself comes from Carl Jung’s idea of the “shadow,” which is not just your dark side. It is everything that was judged, shamed, ignored, or deemed unsafe to express. Anger, fear, grief, jealousy, power, sexuality, sensitivity, and even confidence can all end up in the shadow.

Shadow work is the process of bringing those parts back into awareness instead of letting them run your life unconsciously.

That memory from Los Angeles stayed buried until years later during Iboga work in Egypt. I needed help to get to the washroom. The body remembered what the mind had erased.

That is what real shadow work does. It does not create new stories. It reveals old ones so they can finally be released.

Healing is not about reliving trauma for the sake of pain. It is about letting it complete its cycle so it no longer runs your life from the background. When you clear those attachments, something opens up. Your ability to create. To manifest. To speak reality into being with intention instead of reaction.

But the lesson is not to leave your body to find your soul somewhere else. The lesson is to bring your soul fully back into your body. To inhabit yourself completely.

That is soul growth.

A final reminder that this work does not happen in isolation. It is supported by community, conversation, and shared experience.

If you feel called, consider donating to help get Maryam back to Anarchapulco so these conversations and connections can continue.

Because sometimes when we say ‘I am okay’, what we really mean is…

I NEED HELP.

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