Being Optimal

Being the person you know you should be

There are times I hate being a big bag of chemicals.

If I don’t eat right or don’t get enough sleep, I don’t function optimally.

And if I don’t function optimally, I’m not the wonderful loving, caring person I want to be.

Sometimes I just. can’t.

And yet, I still try.

Recognizing that I’m not at my best helps me warn those I love, so that they don’t take my crankiness personally.

It’s not them; it’s me, not being optimal.

I don’t use this as an excuse.  It’s more an apology and a reminder to myself to do and be better. 

The onus is on me to do what I need to do to help myself regain optimal functioning whether that be sleep or food or quiet alone time.

 Letting other people know what I need and what my limitations are in the moment, helps them to help me be the that good loving wonderful caring person I am, most of the time.