My gut... throughout my lifetime... has NEVER been wrong.
That bad, strange feeling. Bouncing off bad energy, from not such good souls.
People say things, that are down right disheartening. Past the point of cruel. There is no lie. This is the truth. Eric's dad also had the same phone call. To his house that day... almost 12 years ago.
What's the point you might be wondering?.
It's really quite simple.
My gut... throughout my lifetime... has NEVER been wrong.
That bad, strange feeling. Bouncing off bad energy, from not such good souls.
People say things, that are down right disheartening. Past the point of cruel. There is no lie. This is the truth. Eric's dad also had the same phone call. To his house that day... almost 12 years ago.
What's the point you might be wondering?.
It's really quite simple.
The past is never the past. Not for the person on the receiving end... of some really cruel behavior and words.
All intentional words because they are fully conscious and aware of what they are saying. Yet, I am sadly not the first of this kind of behavior towards those who struggle/ struggled with their health. I was just the next one on the totem pole and warned by one who took the abuse before me.
I am the one on the receiving end this go around. It sure the hell hasn't been easy, to say the least!. It's not been easy to find things out... all because I really believe.... my loved ones in heaven are looking out for me.
Continuing to do such.
These are also the end results of having that bad feeling. I didn't check my email accounts yesterday. Instead, I did so this early morning, after taking a shower. Because I was once again wise, to listen to my gut. They say... heed the warning... heed the signs.
I kept on top of all bills, necessities. I did so throughout the legal process with Eric. The only responsibilities of most importance for Eric per state of Indiana/legal counsel?...
Stay on top of the mortgage.
Eric was asked by the state of Indiana to send a letter signed and notarized. That he would stay on top of the mortgage. Especially since the loan is in his name. Eric refused to send them back their request. Case file remains open, for real valid reasons such as this.
I was always responsible. Taking care of all bills. Making sure everything was paid, even ahead of time. I even put my marriage, the man before myself. It was a noble, but foolish mistake. My choosing in men was per therapist, a learned behavior, but I will teach you at this point in your life, how to now choose wisely. As well, psychologically explain, why for my choosings of men. And loyalty of some very abusive behavior.
This current home, mortgage is not my loan. I only legally have said interest in the house. Title and deed.
For the past 2 months asking him about the mortgage... you sure everything is okay? Nothing going on with the mortgage Eric? He would respond, "No, everything is fine. I just spoke to them this day, that day, etc. I still felt something wasnt right over the past few months... because my gut was kicking!.
Someone with the insurance company, felt the need to flag me. An email that I didn't see yesterday... because I didn't check until the next day. This early morning.
I am now left with no choice, but to gamble my health insurance and all benefits beginning August 23rd, 2023.
I must stand on my own two feet, because the help I needed by two individuals... was not taken seriously. They didn't care and I had to quickly come to accept that with the help of my trauma therapist. I believe some people just enjoy, in my opinion, watching you struggle and unnecessarily suffer. However...
I WILL NOT continue to let it happen. PERIOD.
If anyone knows of a house rental, preferably short term (6 months or less). So I can transition into a rental temporarily, while this property is going through final storm repairs, then placed for sale. If not, it will be okay for a year lease on a home. I have my beloved family members, pets that will also being moving with me. 3-4 bedrooms as I will be having a friend move in to help where needed, they will be utilizing their home office.
This will allow me to sell this property, take the proceeds, as well owed money from Eric, regarding spousal maintenance agreement and other matters to court. To finalize EVERYTHING because God knows it is long overdue.
Per real estate agent, "You can then put proceeds from your current home sale, as a down payment on your new home."
I deserve as much happiness as anyone else. I refuse to continue taking some very cruel behavior from the same heartless people.
If I don't get the ball rolling... since the current mortgage is in Eric's name and he is now in default, also owed money for escrow. I will end up homeless with my beloved fur kids.
Eric kept important information. EXTREMELY important information regarding not paying the mortgage from me, for 2 months. 1 more month, I was told via email from a concerned party. You would had lost all collateral, proceeds from selling the property and ended up homeless. The bank would begin the foreclosure process
Clearly, these screenshots and video shows, what it truly feels like when people view your medical struggles as a burden. As an inconvenience. And NO ONE deserves to be treated this way. NO ONE.
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Area looking for house rental, preferably short term/or if need be 1 year lease:
**Ohio, Kentucky, Indiana close to interstate 275 loop**
By the way... these are reasons why people take care of their emotional health. There is no way, I could manage such behavior from the same people if it weren't for the help, guidance from trauma therapists.
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As for 4th of July... I will make up for it, once I get into a new home.
🇺🇸 Wishing you and yours a blessed Independence Day 🇺🇸
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