Can I Be Acting on Godly Wisdom if My Choice Is Giving Me Deep Pain?

Questions about whether you can be acting on godly wisdom if your choice is giving you deep pain, how a combat vet who has difficulty going to church due to PTSD can find peace with who he is, and whether a Christian can be a public defender and represent criminals.

• Can I be acting on godly wisdom if my choice is giving me deep pain?
• I am a combat vet with PTSD who has difficulty connecting with people and doesn’t do well in crowds, which makes it difficult to go to church and have friends and fellowship and leads me to question my faith. How can I find peace with who I am?
• Can a Christian be a public defender and represent people charged with a crime?