145 - Fear is Sin

The Gemara in Brachos page 60a, relates that when one of the sages encountered that one of his students was fearful about something, the sage reprimanded the student, quoting a verse that states that it is a sin to be fearful. The reason for this is because when we internalize that Hashem exclusively orchestrates every happening throughout our lives down to the most minor detail, then when we fear another individual or some circumstance, it's as if we're acknowledging that there is another force outside of Hashem, because if we are to internalize that Hashem is in absolute control, why should we fear anyone or anything? And the sage was therefore teaching the student, if you are fearful, you are committing an actual sin. 

We need to internalize and believe these words. When it comes to other sins that are perhaps more logical and easier for us to understand, it is easier to relate to them as a sin, such as to steal or to commit murder, to talk Lashon Hara, and the many other transgressions that exist. Those are much more relatable to us as sins. But one might argue, how can it be classified as a sin just because I am feeling fearful feelings about someone or something? But we learn differently from this gemara, from the only true perspective, Hashem's perspective, that when we build our emunah and our bitachon, we can reach a place where we only fear Hashem because we truly internalize that ein od milvado, there is absolutely no other force whatsoever in the world except for Hashem, and therefore there is no reason to fear anyone or anything outside of Hashem.

We must remember the gemara which states, hakol bidei shamayim, everything is in the hands of Hashem. Hashem runs every single detail of the world exclusively. And in the same vein, one of the 13 principles of faith that the Rambam outlines is ve'hu levado asa ve'oseh ve'yaseh lechol hamaasim - and He, Hashem, alone did everything in the past, currently does everything in the present, and will orchestrate every single happening in the future. 

It's important to remember that emunah and bitachon, and everything encompassed within them, is our life's work, as we've learnt many times. This is our ultimate purpose of being alive in this world, the main way that we earn our place in the next world, as outlined by the Ramban, the Vilna Gaon, and many many others, and therefore we should take to heart that it is not a one day's journey to excel in emunah and bitachon. Yes, we do need to know where to aim, and therefore it is important to learn the Torah sources such as this Gemara which teaches us that it is actually considered a sin to fear anyone or anything, and ultimately, b'ezrat Hashem, we can all grow more and more to get closer to living our lives in such a way. 

Nevertheless, it is important to internalize that every small step that we make is greater than anything we can imagine in Hashem's books. Hashem does not expect us to climb leaps of emunah and bitachon in small periods of time. As taught by many Torah sources, Hashem places much more emphasis and importance on our effort and endeavor to grow in emunah and bitachon than the actual result that we achieve. "Thank you Hashem for teaching me that every single small step that I make in fulfilling my life's mission of growing in emunah and bitachon is greater to you than anything I can imagine."