EP 158: A Skeptic’s Heart: Faith, Healing, and the Courage to Keep Searching

What happens when everything you once believed starts to fall apart?

In this episode of Clemenz With a Z, I dive into the difference between cynicism and skepticism—and why one keeps you stuck while the other helps you move forward. I share my personal journey through faith deconstruction, religious trauma, and healing, drawing from Richard Rohr’s Wisdom Pattern (Order → Disorder → Reorder) to explore how faith and life aren’t meant to be static. Along the way, I reflect on how my lifelong struggle with ear infections and surgeries became a metaphor for my evolving faith, the risks I took to stay open, and why a growth mindset is essential for healing.

Whether you’ve left a faith system, are questioning what you’ve been taught, or are just trying to figure out what’s next, this episode is about keeping the door open to growth. Because faith isn’t about having all the answers—it’s about having the courage to keep moving.

If this episode resonated with you, or if you’ve been wrestling with your own faith, healing, or the journey from Disorder to Reorder, I’d love to hear your thoughts. You can reach me at clemenzwithaz@gmail.com or send me a DM on Instagram at the Clemenz With a Z podcast page.

And if you’ve ever felt like you had to stay in something just because that’s what you were taught—whether it’s faith, a belief system, or a way of thinking—I hope you walk away from this episode knowing that you are free to ask, to search, and to knock on new doors.

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Until next time—stay open, keep asking, and keep walking. Peace!