Alphonso the Drip
Grew up with a single mom, visits with dad, lots of issues there, decision not to see dadWent to grandpa on the weekends, grade 3Manitoba, living in Winnipeg, north end, not a good part of the cityMom met a guy, about 12 moved to a small town an hour south
Went from the hoodlums in the city to Mennonite Southern Baptist, 15 churchesMom wasn't a religious person but I want you to have the optionBecause it was a religious town, you'd go to the youth groupsFirst real...
Alphonso the Drip
Grew up with a single mom, visits with dad, lots of issues there, decision not to see dad
Went to grandpa on the weekends, grade 3
Manitoba, living in Winnipeg, north end, not a good part of the city
Mom met a guy, about 12 moved to a small town an hour south
Went from the hoodlums in the city to Mennonite Southern Baptist, 15 churches
Mom wasn't a religious person but I want you to have the option
Because it was a religious town, you'd go to the youth groups
First real interaction with charismatic groups. Powerful, you get the tingles
He moved the group.
More of an avenue to hang out, left ideas hanging in his head
Everyone was religious, it wasn't easy to speak out
Propositional conversations. Didn't get to the heart of it. The frames were separate
There wasn't an appreciation for the frame with his friends
Jesus sacrificing himself didn't seem like a sacrifice if he went back to heaven
It was a place holder
In a household there is an animosity to religious thinking
They felt they had to defend themselves against the position to move forward
The groups consolidated on the defenses, Ideological handshakes
When you're willing to step back, your kind of poking people in their axioms
Found JBP, suspender video, Rogan, rabbit hole,
Didn't have a concept of Inspiration for his movement forward
Got hit with depression. Depression is pervasive in the family
He stopped caring, it was gone. Got put on an SSRI
Shift when he took mushrooms. It wasn't the mystical experience that shifted, An opening of being able to conceptualize a positive way of looking at the world. Existence itself became enough
It energized him. Strawberry Swing, Frank Ocean.
You have to make sense of that powerful experience. Your ego tries to take it over. "this was mine"
Settled into this idea of being content. I can move forward.
And then JBP came into the frame.
There's more to being. You can have more if you want it.
It highjacked a lot of the processes.
The concepts were deeper and fuller.
Living in a fractured dream. There's splits.
Abandoning The comforts of nihilism. The contentedness is a façade
"I don't care" is a powerful tool to put everything aside.
Pageau to RR "Where are you standing?"
You're detached, but you're hyper focused on something
It allows for a sort of haze. You're so focused on something so you're ignoring everything else
Its actually one of the beauties of being younger is because you're sitting in so much potential you can focus on one thing and ignore everything else. But for living your day to day life it's an abuse of the fact that you can be in so much potential. The potential is going to collapse as you're moving forward.
JBP: ideas have people… As you move forward you're building something and other things are collapsing.
It's real suffering to care
If I were to die tomorrow. My parents wouldn't care if I didn't have a house, it's the quality of love that we share with each other.
Part of me wants to write off the house as an aside. It's not enough of the picture.
Peterson's Cock-a-doodle-do
Goal: Want an American Akida
Girlfriend, wife kids, house, stable job
Build a relationship with God, walk with God, I want to feel as if I'm acting in a more integrated way that best besets my life and my interactions with the transcendent
Hard to bring it back in.
Need to start looking at it more like that.
Awe and terror, the opening and the closing
Intense psychedelic experiences, the two are walking hand in hand, the awe and the terror
The Body Keeps the Score
EMDR
How Emotions are Made: Feldmen-Barrett
Frame of a classical view and tries to add more nuance to it. Directly related to the issue with words
Tried to find a fingerprint for emotions
Visual interpretation, The concepts bleed together, the inferences overlap
Do we have an angry "circuitry"
WE build the inferences from concepts.
"Angry" is not a real thing, it's a concept
Different cultures will have different emotions, IT's inferences all the way down
It's the relevance realization, it's not the concept itself, where are these concepts coming from. There's an issue there.
Pay attention to what you're doing and what concepts, your arguments are presuppositions.
They're not arguing about the thing, they're arguing about the value of the presuppositions and how they play in you rlife.
You have inferences all the way down. How those inferences come together.
You stare into a vacuum of inferences. You see the interaction without the words. Like Pay Attention
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