182.0 That Time God Failed Me! 3 Things Grief Taught Me About Faith.

2024-08-18

SHOW NOTES … The second month was different…no longer exhausted from caretaking but exhausted emotionally. I was surrounded by my peeps but less so (because after all, people had to return to their lives). I thought (quite literally I was going to die). I really did – but I kept breathing and even that was hard. I didn’t understand how I kept waking up in the morning. What kind of purpose did my life have now? My fights began in earnest: the fight to get out of bed, to take a shower, and to care about any of those things...

SHOW NOTES

… The second month was different…no longer exhausted from caretaking but exhausted emotionally. I was surrounded by my peeps but less so (because after all, people had to return to their lives). I thought (quite literally I was going to die). I really did – but I kept breathing and even that was hard.

I didn’t understand how I kept waking up in the morning. What kind of purpose did my life have now? My fights began in earnest: the fight to get out of bed, to take a shower, and to care about any of those things. My fight with God also began…why, why, why? How could you let that happen, God? Why would you let that happen?

I understood and was drawn to Psalms more than ever in my life. Before I was all about Proverbs because that book told me how to live a godly life. It fit my religious life. But now Psalms and Job and all the anguish and lamenting. I understood it but I saw my situation differently. David lamented but praised while I lamented, blamed, accused and asked for understanding. I told God that 43 years was enough, and I had no purpose, so I was fine if my time was up too…

But God….

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