Flutter

So much of what we do is a matter of awakenings and slumber. Literally and figuratively, we go to sleep in doubt and awaken with certitudes. But ironically the importance lies in the drift. Because that’s when we are true to ourselves, and not berating the universe for its shingle or rust. The magic is in the moment.

 

To love, to ease into lovemaking and then to sigh into remission, are life’s unasked-for gifts, for us to know that whatever the flutter vicissitudes would bring into our worlds, there is always the concomitant  joy of paradise found. Because there are truths to discover and reconfirm, lies to uncover and not pay attention to, a life to ease oneself into.

 

We are always afraid of the first time. The anticipation ties knots inside and the expectation of disaster shackles our nerves. It’s a worn-out cliche now to talk about finding excitement beyond the pale of risk. In reality, there’s just one moment which could turn our life over. To be present. To be available. To let ourselves be the handmaiden of the moment. We are changed merely because we let ourselves ease through closed doors, with the believe that the arc lights were always ours.

 

As author Anne Lamott says so eloquently - “Grace always meets you exactly where you are, but does not leave you where it found you.”

 

If you liked this poem, consider listening to these other poems on the joys and exasperations of lovemaking -

• Finding Souls Between their Legs
• Why Don't You Make Love To Me Anymore
• Bringing The Storm Home

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The details of the music used in this episode are as follows -

Music: Imagefilm 015 by Sascha Ende
Free download: https://filmmusic.io/song/296-imagefilm-015
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Artist website: https://www.sascha-ende.de

Music: Heart Love by MusicLFiles
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Artist website: https://cemmusicproject.wixsite.com/musiclibraryfiles