True confession: my first attempt at recounting this episode was such a dull, sausage-making drone that I bored even myself. So I'm trying again, this time with atmosphere, and maybe some mental sausage.
A couple of hours before the program, it rained. A lot. There was flooding in the area! And I think of the poor children and their parents, especially in our old hipster neighborhood, a Halloween wonderland, getting soaked in their heroic effort to keep the candy industry afloat.
I was working in the opposite direction, trying to get to the gym, probably for the first time in several days--my new job was exhausting me mentally and physically, and I had dived deeply into comfort food (and am still diving)--and taking my life into my own hands.
Rain is my least favorite weather to begin with, but particularly in Ithaca--usually if it's raining it's just the right temperature for our car to fog up uncontrollably. I could easily have mowed down some young family on my way to torture myself, and to be honest I probably felt nothing in particular about either part of this equation.
Feels like I just talked about how much I hate fundraising programs, and here I was in the control room again the next day. Like a goddamn salmon I keep returning, with tremendous effort, and I don't even get it.
Since this program was broadcast, 95 days ago now, I've gone on the air 17 times. I am listening to a transmission from 61 days ago. I'm currently editing a sound file from 41 days ago--7 shows ago. What does it amount to, this enormous task? And what will I even do when I am caught up? Anyway, October's finished, unless you count that unfortunate area of space-time where it is always still happening, forever.
Fittingly, I played a bunch of 4AD-adjacent stuff on this evening of "songs about ghosts and songs about dead people." It haunts me, or at least it haunts the person I have been, whom I carry around with me at all times. It is more "me" to stray from the "best available" in favor of the weird, personal, disturbing. And of course we made less money on this night than the last one. Sometimes I know what I'm talking about.
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Cruising Altitude Departure 30, 2018 December 8
Songs About Bad People: Transmission 436, 2018 December 5
C'mon Queenie, Let's Get With It: Transmission 435, 2018 December 1
I Make My Own True Crooked Way: Transmission 434, 2018 November 28
U_D_M Detour 34, 2018 November 17
Daddy Goes Dancing with Mommy-O: Transmission 433, 2018 November 14
Feels Like Murder But That's Alright: Transmission 432, 2018 November 7
Cruising Altitude Departure 29, 2018 November 3
No More Worlds Like This, No More Days Like That: Transmission 431, 2018 October 31
U_D_M Detour 33, 2018 October 27
People Differ in an Absolutely General Way: Transmission 430, 2018 October 24
A Love Like Ours Is Rare: Transmission 429, 2018 October 17
We'll Be the Pirate Twins Again: Transmission 428, 2018 October 14
There's Always Danger in Your Dreams: Transmission 427, 2018 October 10
Sardonicus Keeps Smiling Till the End: Transmission 426, 2018 October 3
You Broke the World That You're Not Long For: Transmission 425, 2018 September 26
Can I Be You, I Don't Want To Be Me: Transmission 424, 2018 September 19
Dare To Live in Your Body: Transmission 423, 2018 September 12
Hold Onto Your Darkness: Transmission 422, 2018 September 5
If Your Heart's Strong, Hold On: Transmission 421, 2018 August 22
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