is isolation, ai, & the monotony of existence all we have left?

i spiral through fleeting thoughts on live streams turned to lost media, twitch's pretentious allure, ai's underestimated tricks, and the crushing monotony of existence. noise fills the void as i navigate isolation, stagnant ambition, suffocating dependency, and a world indifferent to my existence. what am i holding on to? topics in today's episode: lost media, twitch streaming limitations, youtube subscriber barriers, ai for unexpected tasks, personal stagnation, societal apathy, unrelenting despair, mental exhaustion, gratitude vs. dissatisfaction, narcissism in content creation, dependency struggles, family dynamics, economic precarity, finding meaning amidst futility, coping mechanisms, inner conflict, dark humor as survival, and the illusion of independence.