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being fearless is my favourite…

I have been writing about and exploring the concept of fear lately. My second book has started coming through which has been this steady flow of taking notes, planning the layout, chapter summaries, voice notes, its all I can do to keep up with the words and stream of consciousness that pours through. This feeling of being in flow I love, and the first section has been about the concept of and our ideas of fear. The differing layers of fear and how they can affect our lives. So this newsletter is opening part of the information that has been coming through. A lil’ taste of what’s to come. I have over the past while kinda stepped away from socials, questioning why do I need to do this? What is the purpose of social media? I have no real desire or want of validation, so why engage? It’s been interesting looking at my relationship with social media and if it is a valid form of communication for me. I have been noticing what actions I have taken in the past in different areas of my life from a place of fear. If I have no fear, no fear of not being relevant or of being seen… is social media necessary? I love what I do, and who I am, so without a need for validation what purpose does socials have for me? It has been a curious path that my eyes have opened to and one I am still exploring. Being busy in my day to day life recently plus moving house has left little time anyways for social media and what I truly love doing - my writing, my meditation classes, and spending time within consciousness. Finally, I am now here in my new place and loving being settled into my routine once more. I am loving the light, airy feeling. Loving waking up hearing the birdsong and the ocean. Pottering around and setting up a new home. New rituals, new habits. Finally back to my usual loves. I am discovering the little corners I most like writing in. Where do I feel cosy? Where do I feel inspired? Where do I feel most like me? It’s a gentle period of discovering a new space. To be honest, I had such fear, agitation and anxiety before moving in. Fear it would be too noisy, fear it was too far away from my girls, fear I was making the wrong decision in taking this place. It felt like a huge over-extension for me. Fear was placing me in an unnatural state of freeze. With freeze, I found myself not in flow. I had the heaviest feeling in my body before the move, I knew I was committed, and yet I was so hesitant. Now that I am here, I can say that this immense feeling of being stuck in limbo or stagnancy I have experienced in the past weeks was preparation for the up-level I have received. I understood with such clarity on the first night here what was going on. This is my new place. This is what I deserve, this is what I have worked so hard towards. This is where I am meant to be. New routines, new views, I can sit out on my balcony and watch the night sky. From my lounge room I have a direct view of the sunrise over the ocean. I can see and step straight onto some of my fav little hidden coves to swim in the ocean and lay in the sun. It is so much more than what I imagined or saw as the level of comfortability for myself. I was meant to stretch myself.And to think that my fear nearly fucked it all up.Fear is a ruthless master when we are unaware of our fear and how it claims us, shames us, controls us and ruins a perfect moment, day, week, year. We can let our fear rule us. I teach my students that moments of agitation are an invitation to expansion, can moments of fear be seen as an invitation to freedom? This fear had a hold on me about moving house and yet now I see how it was an invitation to be bigger, bolder, more set on my purpose, more focused on my work. An invitation to simply be more, dream bigger, act bigger. So, I have accepted this gift presented to me. I didn’t think I was ready, and yet I was guided to be uncomfortable and rise above what was before. Our fear can keep us small, playing on the same playground, on the same merry-go-round, when in fact we are being offered the whole huge delicious fun park if we are able to see past our self-imposed limitations. In the process of writing about fear, I have called upon my own experiences and research with it. There are some amazing writings by Michael Singer, Phillip Stutz, Rick Rubin, and all speak of something similar. To move through any emotion, first you must feel it, completely. Experience the worst case scenario your mind can bring you to. Allow the fear to rise within you. Feel it deeply, then simply release. It seems too easy. But when you practice this, it is amazing the sense of peace that comes to you. How I see fear energetically is imagine everything that you fear, all the little things to the big ones. This layer of ‘fear energy’ surrounds you like a cloud or fog. As you move through your day, you have this cloud of fear surrounding you. You make your decisions from within this fear, you react and act from within this fear. It is your unconscious master. Fear of being too much, of not enough. Fear of losing a loved one, fear of losing yourself. Fear of rejection, belittlement, fear of being alone or unloved. Fear of being unwanted or undesirable. Fear of failure, success. Fear of fear itself. The fear that we pick up on from the media, society, our friends or well meaning loved ones, all add to our cloud - if we unconsciously choose to. Our fear can be from our own creation, or from our interactions with the greater world around us. Words spoken by ourselves or others become our unconscious way of seeing our world. It becomes a chokehold upon you. A leash that binds you. You are blind to your fear.The crazy thing is, that once you recognise it, once you acknowledge it, it is satiated. Our fear loves us and only wants to protect us. So just as our inner child, our heart, or any part of our inner world simply wants to be seen, heard, felt, so too does our fear. The minute we recognise and feel our fear, we expand it, and it simply dissipates. We have named it to claim it, and its claim on us diminishes. This cloud that has surrounded us suddenly is letting through light, suddenly there is a break in the cloud, suddenly we see how calm, peaceful, serene life can be when fear is no longer our master. We can ask our fear what it is trying to tell us, protect us from, we can speak to our fear for it to teach us more about ourselves. What does your fear have as a message for you?Imagine a life where every experience you encounter has no fear. Imagine every interaction that you have you respond from a place of peace and calm, that without fear there is only joy, bliss, love. Imagine being able to express freely how you feel without fear of rejection. Imagine no insecurity, no feelings of less than, would you feel free? How different would your life look to you?What leap would you take?So, I ask you… what is your greatest fear? Close your eyes and ask your heart this question. Ask gently, patiently and allow the answer or answers to bubble up inside of you. You may be surprised by what rises from within. Take your time and be gentle with yourself. To face this fear, to feel it, to play out the worst case scenario, to allow your heart to experience this pain, and then simply, gently release. You must feel it deeply, and then choose to let go. Mine were things like not being loved, being alone, letting someone down, not being enough… I realised these are all parts of me that needed love right now. My greatest fear was not having my children in my life. This great fear I lived through during my time in Mexico, and I survived. I survived and now they are back in my life. In a different and new way of our relationships blossoming the facing of this fear showed me that even my worst fear can come to fruition and still I can survive, lean in and be all of me. For sometimes our greatest fear is showing us where our sense of self has been placed, and if we can see that all is forever changing we can simply let go of the attachment to the fear. Without this fear now I know that I am blessed to have them back, and I am ok if it is not to be. Gratitude for the new doors opening and I am never taking these relationships for granted again. Love has opened a new door. Fear loves to remind you that what has happened in the past will happen again. Love opens the door to show you that there is new opportunities, new ways of being, new ways of seeing the world. Love opens all doors.One of the traits that I share with my girls is fearlessness. Their fearlessness inspires me.I love being fearless, it’s a favourite of mine. I see the fearlessness with my surfing, I love big waves and this fearless part of me is so at home in the ocean. This adventurous spirit is strong with me. Surfing is a great example here. If I was to have fear while surfing, my critical thinking shuts down, I am no longer in flow, I am more focused on the fear and the worst possible outcome. Plus, all of the smaller incidental fears can rise, where all I can focus on is the fear of what can go wrong. Rather than being in joy, or gratitude, rather than thinking what could go right, rather than trusting myself, I am held in a captive chokehold by fear. I am afraid to take a risk, I cannot see anything other than the failure. Fear shuts us down, love opens us up. Being fearless isn’t without risk, though the amount of personal joy it brings cannot be discounted. Floods of serotonin and dopamine course through our systems leaving us with a sense of euphoria. Even if you fail, or bomb out on the biggest wave, there is still the benefit of the fearlessness being activated. These feel good chemicals open the pathways within your mind where you can now be open to, well if I can do this, what else can I do? Can I go bigger? The world opens up, you have belief and trust in yourself, you see that you can reach higher, greater. Your whole state of being changes, and you’re smiling ear to ear to boot. Why wouldn’t you take the risk?My fearless nature comes in large part from my inner child or child-like self… she is absolutely fearless. I borrow from this part of me and carry it in to other areas of my life. Yes, my inner child is fearless, she is also playful, she is curious, funny, kind and sweet, she is a big part of my heart. I draw on these qualities to be fearless with my words, my love, to be fearless in how I choose to be me. To be fearless in how I express myself, my feelings. To be fearless with where I want to take my writing, to be fearless in how I describe my experiences with consciousness. This choice to be fearless has huge consequences. Confidence naturally follows, a knowing of that everything that is right for me will find me, a complete trust in what is happening for me is already here. To see the magic and wonder through child-like eyes in the world around me. To be completely unbound by fear - is pure, loving freedom. Love comes easily when fear is diminished. Fear can rise at any time for us in our life, perhaps we can clearly see it in the moment, perhaps it is the hindsight, no matter, when we name it, we claim it and in that moment we can choose to let it go and allow our love to lead us. If we are wanting to let go of our fear, the easiest thing to ask yourself is what would love do here? What would love say here? How would love respond?You will never regret any leap taken, you will regret staying on the shore. To be fearless is to be guided by love, and to know that rewards are always waiting for those who take the leap.And know, that I am right beside you, cheering you on.From this fearless heart of mine, I love you x Nicole To purchase your copy of free… living your life free within consciousness simply click the link below xto purchase free… from Amazon USAto purchase free… from Amazon AUSto purchase free… from Amazon UKto purchase free… from Amazon CAN(if you are outside of these areas pls send a message and I can send the link directly)Nicole Forrest is a writer and teacher of consciousness, spirituality, meditation, and metaphysics. She is here to open the hearts of the world through her words and energy. Poetic & lyrical, Nicole makes it easy to understand the complexities of our human existence, and in our greater universe. That unexplainable feeling of knowing, hair standing on the back of your neck, how does the concept of intuition or consciousness fit into our everyday life? How can we harness our infinite power and intelligence? This is Nicole’s playground and she welcomes you with the energy and spirit of the curious child seeing the world through the lens of wonder.She is also a gifted channel, akashic reader and energetic practitioner based in sydney, ausconnect with nicole via her website hereto find out more about booking a session or becoming a student connect hereconnect with nicole on instagram hereconnect with nicole via email here - nicolelovingearth@gmail.comconnect with Nicole’s writings here -nicole loving earth is a reader-supported publication. To receive new posts and support my work, consider becoming a free or paid subscriber. Get full access to nicole loving earth at nicolelovingearth.substack.com/subscribe

the chrysalis...

This, I see the purpose of life as not what we become, but the difference we choose to make to the world around us. An un-becoming of what we thought or who we were of sorts. How I see this is the life path we travel, our strengths we build upon, our lessons we learn, our trials, our hurts, loves and joys all create this version of us that we can choose in any moment how we are to be in the world. It’s like this invisible force throughout our life determining whether we come out the other side or are to be swallowed by the totality of our lived experiences. nicole loving earth is a reader-supported publication. To receive new posts and support my work, consider becoming a free or paid subscriber.Whether we are in communion with this force, or we allow it to direct us… is our choice. To become from our past, or to choose to leave it behind and un-become and not to be defined by our past. This force within each of us is there, whether we see it, feel it, master it. Or, we choose to ignore it and succumb to becoming mastered by the total of our experiences.I sat in meditation today and what was shown to me were the beautiful, raw and emotional conversations and interactions I have had over the past weeks. All of these reflections being shown to me of how I show up in the world. Noey, my love, you in particular sat there with me on weekend overlooking our little spot by the beach and showed me who I was. Took the time to sit with me as you reflected back to me some of the impact I have made to you and others. I know I was tired and super emotional in this moment with you, and yet you showed such grace to simply be with me as you shared what I do, and what I have done. To be seen, and shown who I am, humbled me in ways I fail to express with these simple words. I saw myself through your eyes.There were other moments, though one in particular, so small, so insignificant… but it opened something for me. I was walking with my daughter Arwen along the esplanade and she stopped me as a caterpillar was crossing our path. The people behind us also stopped to allow the caterpillar to pass. A few seconds of time. A nothing moment. But here, I saw what it takes for this little caterpillar to survive long enough to even become the chrysalis. We can turn our focus on our own healing or path of transformation and yet dismiss so easily the challenges faced to even come to this point of change. I see now that self reflection is a privilege that many do not have access to or the liberty to create the space for.This little caterpillar had survived crossing a busy path, survived not being eaten or squished simply for the chance of transformation. Every effort and challenge faced to be granted the safety to transform. If I look to my own well worn and now public journey, then I can see how every experience, every challenge, every step I have taken has built the fortitude within me for the transformation that was to come. To survive and make it to the cocoon stage is a triumph. My own cocoon stage I know was the process of writing free… and out the other side I can now see how the transformation that occurred and was required, to come out of my self imposed gooey cocoon stage and the safety of my little container. Just as the butterfly, I struggled to leave it. To leave the safety of the cocoon takes supreme effort from the butterfly emerging from the chrysalis and without this struggle, the butterfly does not build the strength to fly. Each step of the process without outside interference creates the strength within for what lays ahead. To assist the butterfly in its process may seem like it creates an easier path - though without that struggle the butterfly shall not have built up its own inner strength and can perish and die. It is a lonely journey to keep going, to keep struggling. Then, finally, the emergence and the witnessing of the emergence create this moment of exquisite wonder and beauty. The emergence being the moment of freedom. The metamorphosis of life. And as the butterfly takes flight, changes its habits, creates new ways of seeing the world, rather from the dark underbrush and ground level focused view, it is now soaring, flying high. A completely new perspective on what it means to be alive. A new view, a new vantage point, a new way of moving through the world. The magic of the butterfly stops us in our tracks. We notice its beauty, its vibrancy. Whether we are aware of the journey it has taken to be in this form, or simply witnessing it as it is now, it is a miracle of magic. And yet, the butterfly is never to see its own magic. It is never to see the beauty in its own wings, in its flight, in its light, its energy. It never sees how we are stopped in our tracks witnessing its magic. As the butterfly becomes accustomed to its new way of seeing the world, here we are, completely captivated by it.This past week, I have experienced the mirror being held to my inner butterfly, for me to see my magic. And perhaps for the first time in my life, my eyes were open to see it. To see my own beautiful wings, to see the energy I hold. To see how I change people. To see how I have chosen to be in the world. It is my energy, I live it daily and so for me it’s just the way things are. But there have been multiple messages from different people sharing with me how I have changed them and others. This has been such a gift. I see these people as my personal angels. Reminding me of who I am, what I do without thought, without effort. My angels who are here to remind me, to inspire me, to push me to be even more. These are my people. See the people in your life who hold this mirror to you. See how they hold this mirror for you to see your magic, your beauty, your vibrance. These are your angels. Remind those in your life who shine bright, without effort, how they change you. You can be the angel for them. If you are reading this, I want to tell you how much you have changed my life, how much beauty you hold within, how your kindness, your generous spirit, your thoughtfulness and care stop me in my tracks, captivate me, and show me what love is. You are truly magnificent. You are glorious. You celebrate me, and I in turn wish to celebrate you. For you show me each and every day how I can be more, how I can rise, how I can be softer with my love, gentler with my delivery.I want to tell you my beautiful butterfly, I see your magic.We don’t ever really see the effect we have on others. We don’t know or are aware of how the simplest act, the simplest words we share change the course of someone’s day. For my morning walk and coffee and conversations challenging the world as we see it, these simple little moments I see celebrate what it means to be alive. Habits can change, routines can change, our view of ourselves and others can change. When we self reflect and see that we know nothing, we open, we un-become and our greater force within us opens to all. Thank you to my angels. I finally see my wings, and I see your wings and want to return the celebration of you in my life. With so much love, Nicole xxxTo purchase your copy of free… living your life free within consciousness simply click the link below xto purchase free… from Amazon USAto purchase free… from Amazon AUSto purchase free… from Amazon UKto purchase free… from Amazon CAN(if you are outside of these areas pls send a message and I can send the link directly)Nicole Forrest is a writer and teacher of consciousness, spirituality, meditation, and metaphysics. She is here to open the hearts of the world through her words and energy. Poetic & lyrical, Nicole makes it easy to understand the complexities of our human existence, and in our greater universe. That unexplainable feeling of knowing, hair standing on the back of your neck, how does the concept of intuition or consciousness fit into our everyday life? How can we harness our infinite power and intelligence? This is Nicole’s playground and she welcomes you with the energy and spirit of the curious child seeing the world through the lens of wonder.She is also a gifted channel, akashic reader and energetic practitioner based in sydney, ausconnect with nicole via her website hereto find out more about being a student connect hereconnect with nicole on instagram hereconnect with nicole via email here - nicolelovingearth@gmail.comconnect with Nicole’s writings here -nicole loving earth is a reader-supported publication. To receive new posts and support my work, consider becoming a free or paid subscriber. Get full access to nicole loving earth at nicolelovingearth.substack.com/subscribe

trust the hindsight...

In a moment of reflection I caught myself seeing the past five years as memory upon memory flooded through of where I was to where I am now. Not only where I have been in the physical sense, but also my maturity… emotionally, mentally, spiritually. It’s funny isn’t it… one of the things I hear myself saying before becoming agitated is ‘will this matter to me in five years time?’ A perfect pause of whether I choose to let a situation affect me or not. Will it matter in five years time? What has happened and how have I changed over the past five years? What was soooo important to me five years ago that now no longer has a hold over me? What did I only see as a faraway dream before and now is my current reality?nicole loving earth is a reader-supported publication. To receive new posts and support my work, consider becoming a free or paid subscriber.In the past five years I have opened my business, run group programs, group ceremony, served clients and students across the world, written a book, travelled across far away countries, lost my family, rebuilt relationships, found out who I am, who I am not, been led and provided for in my most darkest moments and still, here, I stand. Standing here now, I see that anything I can dream of has the opportunity to become my reality. Any single thing I set my intention towards has the chance of coming to fruition, that all that I thought was lost, can always find its way back to me. I see so clearly that all I was nervous about, all I did not think I was capable of, all that I felt held me back in any small or big way has simply dissolved. What I have as the thought of what I want my work to evolve into is already here. It’s simply the way of the path of least resistance to where I wish to be. How freeing.This is a practice, not a perfect and as I find myself being stretched this way and that, challenged or opposed, we can feel when all is well, even good or easy… even for a moment and then we cautiously await the fuckening that is sure to happen. The moment it all blows up, changes, or challenges. What if there was no reckoning? What if it was only to get better and better? What if there was no other shoe to drop?Here I was seeing all that has unfolded for me in the past and what I put so much weight of importance upon, and what truly doesn’t matter, five years along. Five years ago, covid was not even a thing. Five years ago we were all blissfully unaware of how the world would change, how we would change. With writing free… most of what happened in the book was two, even three years ago. There has been an immense expanse of time and space in between, and I know how much I have even changed and grown since its release. Sometimes things take time to change, sometimes it’s a rapid growth and sometimes both are happening simultaneously. I shared in my last writing about all this softness that had only opened deeper and deeper and I guess what I am seeing now is this strength with the softness. The strength of my mind, my emotions, of knowing who I am. No need to prove my worth to anyone anymore. It’s like all of this pressure that we unconsciously carry about our day of how we are supposed to be, who we are supposed to be has fallen away. I don’t do what I do for external validation, I am very happy in my own skin, in my own space. I am super comfortable with silence, with my own company. I love my way of seeing the world, I love my own writing, I take such pleasure in my writing blooming. I don’t second guess my self, though I do let an idea or insight simmer away now rather than act quickly. I am so comfortable in knowing when something is finished, and when something is waiting for another ingredient to be added. Life experience plays a big part in my writing as I have a piece unfold, absolutely the next conversation, interaction, the next time I am sitting out in the surf, the answer or unfolding happens. It’s an ease that comes easily when we no longer fear projections, another’s opinion of how we choose to live our life, no fear of another’s judgement. It’s like all of this validation we have sought perhaps our whole life ceases to be relevant. For those we have so keenly asked for validation from, perhaps they were not able to deliver from their own place of lack, insecurity, competition or comparison. Validation I had come up in a meditation recently and this beautiful aspect of external validation was when it comes from such a clear, loving and pure place with crystal clear intentions, there is a celebration. And how then this type of validation opens the door to affection. If we look at the origin of the word validation - valour, this is a courage which is shown in stepping outside of yourself to achieve more, and so the validation I see as a celebration of your courage. That is what we are seeking. A celebration of us. A celebration of our courage in being vulnerable. Of being more, of being greater than before. And what I have experienced is with this pure loving validation, guess what comes forward from me - Affection. Care. Nurture. My last writing here I spoke of how feeling safe allows me to soften deeper, what if validation expanded my feelings of affection?For when we feel celebrated, seen, when we have that one person who believes in us, this allows us to spread our wings and fly. We feel we are able to accomplish anything. That nothing is out of our reach or scope. Our big dreams seem like obvious steps forward. When we have spent a lifetime looking for one person to believe in us, and it is delivered, we can feel like is this true? If all we have ever wanted is delivered to us, we can second guess the delivery. And then, it settles in, we see that yes, all we have wanted, wished for, prayed for is here for us. The surprise of how it is delivered, the surprise of the offer. This valour in being vulnerable has opened the door to affection. Kind words and care are one thing, validation shows you from a true place that you matter, your voice matters, your words matter. The drawbridge and defences lower as you see you are finally safe to simply be… you.Life has been an incredible journey of late, and if I am to look back upon the last five years and see all that has happened - all I feel is excitement for the next five years. For all we could wish for our lives, what if it was grander, larger, more rock n’ roll than anything we could ever imagine?One thing is for sure, I believe in me, I believe in what I do, who I am, I trust and love myself deeply, so for anything else that comes my way, this is simply the cherry on top. And that, is the most freeing thing.with so much love, nicole xxxTo purchase your copy of free… living your life free within consciousness simply click the link below xto purchase free… from Amazon USAto purchase free… from Amazon AUSto purchase free… from Amazon UKto purchase free… from Amazon CAN(if you are outside of these areas pls send a message and I can send the link directly)Nicole Forrest is a writer and teacher of consciousness, spirituality, meditation, and metaphysics. She is here to open the hearts of the world through her words and energy. Poetic & lyrical, Nicole makes it easy to understand the complexities of our human existence, and in our greater universe. That unexplainable feeling of knowing, hair standing on the back of your neck, how does the concept of intuition or consciousness fit into our everyday life? How can we harness our infinite power and intelligence? This is Nicole’s playground and she welcomes you with the energy and spirit of the curious child seeing the world through the lens of wonder.She is also a gifted channel, akashic reader and energetic practitioner based in sydney, ausconnect with nicole via her website hereto find out more about being a student connect hereconnect with nicole on instagram hereconnect with nicole via email here - nicolelovingearth@gmail.comconnect with Nicole’s writings here -nicole loving earth is a reader-supported publication. To receive new posts and support my work, consider becoming a free or paid subscriber. Get full access to nicole loving earth at nicolelovingearth.substack.com/subscribe

life is now...

Our life is merely a grain of sand upon the wide open shore of consciousness. We are here experiencing this life, together - and for the billions of years the planet has been here, the millions of people that have come before us, do you not think it incredible that we are here together, at this exact moment, sharing this life experience?Here you are, right now, experiencing life. This moment right here, is life. Reading these words here is now part of the moments of your experience. Take a breath in and see that your life is not almost here, or soon or some far off future time and space. It is not the past or what happened before. Life is here, now, in this moment. No matter whether it is a shining, sparkly, clear day for you, or storm clouds casting shadows and the wind howling, this is life. Pain or pleasure, this is life. Sunshine, cloudy days, rainbows, this is life. Now is life, here and now. For nothing is guaranteed - tomorrow, the next opportunity, the next time we meet. And so if all I have is now and today, I want to say all that I want to say. I want to feel all the feels deeply, I want to experience and taste life to the fullest. I want to say I love, I’m fond of, and so so grateful for you. I want to tell those I love how grateful I am for them. I want to linger on the smile created from the kind word. I want to see every colour reflected in the colour of your eyes. I want to feel you exhale after the most perfect thing whispered to you. I want the smile that comes after you’ve made me laugh - this is my favourite smile, the smile created from seeing another’s joy.The warmth of the sun on the back of my neck that you stare at, wishing it was you warming that soft spot. The underbelly exposed, the most vulnerable parts shown as the softest most gentle love greets you each day. Your eyes open to this love, for the words I love you… too simple. I want to wander peacefully through the childlike garden of your heart, trailing my fingers across every petal on every flower, blooming here within you. You are safe with me.  For whatever has happened in the past, whoever you were, whoever I was, do not exist here, now. For we are now, here. And changed from what once was. You can rest now, I am here. I’m sorry it took me so long to find you.These moments of time when we see them as life, we become the moments. Not the worry or stress, not the challenge or upheaval. These are simply their own moments. I want joy, peace, love… to still be present throughout all else we must travel through. For when the weary traveller cannot take the next step, what carries him forward is his memories of love, of the sweetness, the savouring of life. He takes the next step towards love, he is buoyed by that great love to carry him home. Not for us to skip through moments of next next next, but to taste every sweetness that is offered in its own delicious time. Softness in the moment, softness with the delivery, softness in the receiving of all that is coming to be. The softest of loves offered up like magic awaiting for the longest time coming, no rush to the delivery, no rush of the experience.Let my words be the salve, the balm, your heart has been wanting to feel. Let my energy and intention of bringing you here allow you to see how magical this life can be. The words hit different when the energy and intention are known and felt. Under no expectation nor obligation, this is freedom of simply expressing love. The freedom of feeling love. Love is everything.Imagine with this love, you could bring all of your focus to now. Your unconscious focus on the past, your focus on the future, perhaps it is unconsciousness thought patterns of constant worry or regret, all that energy that focuses on all else except now. Bring all your focus here. And simply say I am here. I am here. For here, now is pleasure. Here, now is presence, here now, is the no sense of time as the slowness envelops all that it touches as the most simple of gestures bring a level of peace and calm. We are each here for such a short time in the great expanse of consciousness and so to be fully present with what is offered, without expectation, without fear, can we rewrite what has been written of us and begin with a clean slate? To try all things as if for the first time and see how easy it can all be. To savour each first time the second time round. The first touch, the first kiss, the first experience once more, this time savoured, relished, explored… Free to rewrite what once was and create something like never before.The longing for belonging I have written about earlier this year, this deep need within me to belong. Not from a place of being owned, but simply to be led from my softness by the safety shown. The safe perhaps I have never felt. The safety allows the softness to be revealed. The sacred softness of my love keeps gaining momentum as I dive deeper into the infinite abyss of love. For what I felt was my softest point, has merely scratched the surface. There is such romance in seeing how soft love can be. Can it be softer? And softer still? There is nothing I want for, nothing I need or require, I hope for nothing, I wish for nothing, I fear nothing, I am free… for love is here for me. So… I wrote this book titled free… and what has happened in this past month since I released it on amazon is this most amazing thing of all of my softness coming through so, so, softly. It’s crazy to think I had fear. Fear of how it would be received, how it would be perceived, and my greatest fear was would it change peoples perceptions of me? And my dear friend turned around, before reading it, and spoke - it’s supposed to. Every last drop of fear I had melted away. And then once it was read - just accolades and praise. Changed perceptions? For sure. But in such a glorious way I had not expected or thought it could have gone. For our mind is the ultimate prankster, allowing us to believe the worst, instead of perhaps it could be more beautiful than we could ever imagine. To say this book is healing is an understatement. It has given me back my softness in infinite qualities and ways. So this, here, is a thank you. For the man who has everything, all there is to offer is the softest love from me, and thank you. To be witnessed, is such a gift. This softness of mine, a pure loving gift.The muse is a powerful figure for the creative and so to inspire the art to flow, I have found for me the muse is key to what is expressed. Does the muse choose the creative or the creative choose the muse? I’m not sure but one thing I have realised is that inspiration can come in the unexpected, most surprising of ways. To be inspired to be greater, to be more, to delve deeper, to uncover truths, to explore, to play, to see the absurdity of life and create from this place is pure, letting the horse lead kinda freedom. And so, now… all I want to do is write, write about love, write the next book, write about consciousness, write all the words of my heart. Forever in debt to the muse, may the words flow xWith so much gooey soft love, Nicole x To purchase your copy of free… living your life free within consciousness simply click the link below xto purchase free… from Amazon USAto purchase free… from Amazon AUSto purchase free… from Amazon UKto purchase free… from Amazon CAN(if you are outside of these areas pls send a message and I can send the link directly)Nicole Forrest is a writer and teacher of consciousness, spirituality, meditation, and metaphysics. She is here to open the hearts of the world through her words and energy. Poetic & lyrical, Nicole makes it easy to understand the complexities of our human existence, and in our greater universe. That unexplainable feeling of knowing, hair standing on the back of your neck, how does the concept of intuition or consciousness fit into our everyday life? How can we harness our infinite power and intelligence? This is Nicole’s playground and she welcomes you with the energy and spirit of the curious child seeing the world through the lens of wonder.She is also a gifted channel, akashic reader and energetic practitioner based in sydney, ausconnect with nicole via her website hereto find out more about being a student connect hereconnect with nicole on instagram hereconnect with nicole via email here - nicolelovingearth@gmail.comconnect with Nicole’s writings here - Get full access to nicole loving earth at nicolelovingearth.substack.com/subscribe

toot toot tooting my own horn…

Truly, what a time to be alive. Sometimes though it can feel like the whole world has been cast into darkness, for us all to be swallowed whole by this immense pressure of living through what we are living through. And then… this thought comes to mind, what if we have all been brought here at this time to witness this, and perhaps be the ones to make a change? This small sliver of hope, this tiny ray of sunshine breaking through clouds that have darkened the sky for an age. A collective breath inhaled to ask questions, to be present, a feeling of what if it could be different?We are always constantly changing. Whether we try to control it, or fight it, or go with the flow, change is always changing us. And as the world at large changes, we can begin to question what is my purpose? Why am I here? What is the point or reason for my experiences, for my life?Whether you feel as if you are heralding in the new way of being or simply showing up, connecting to the world at large has never been so easy, so instant. Every question we have come to mind can be answered in seconds. And not too long ago it would take eons  to create and deliver a message and to cross seas, now in less than the time it takes me to type this sentence, a whole conversation could occur across the world and back again. We are able to witness in real time monumental world events and happenings. Time is speeding up in the delivery of communication. And yet, we feel so disconnected. We feel alone, we feel an isolation deeper than I can remember in my life. This constant onslaught of new new new means we have lost our sense of self, our sense of roots planted. We feel lost, cast adrift, without anchor. As a creative, it feels really scary and almost distasteful to bring rays of hope or love, to birth something new into the world that isn’t focused on conflict. It’s like if you are not on this side or that, but somewhere in the middle just wanting all sides to calm down, protecting both sides from each other… this I see as the role of the protector, a role I am very familiar with. And it can feel really triggering with all the conflict that we are experiencing. The sides and the separation, reminding us of our childhood experiences, triggering deep wounds of needing to choose a side, of someone being right or wrong, of someone winning or losing. Choosing creativity in times of chaos can feel childlike or like you are sidestepping the bigger picture, though without free thought and creativity, there can be no way out.Without the courage it takes to be creative, we shall loose our voice. I am a creative, I am intelligent and I now see that my intelligence is part of my light. I see that my experience as a child and teenager was shaped by this compartmentalisation. I went to a selective high school, an academic high school and the most common statement when people find this out is - ‘oh you must’ve been smart’. I was, and I am. But I always felt as a creative I was a round peg trying to fit into a square hole, as you could not be both. The upbringing I had was that creative pursuits were wasting my intelligence. What use is my intelligence if it has been shut down since childhood because of a society where you cannot be both? I dimmed my own intelligence so as to not appear too smart, too wise, I played dumb to make others feel safe. This was also dimming my light, my expression. For if how I see the world is different, or if I see the beauty and I share this simplicity with you, then perhaps in your day you see the beauty also. Simplistic, childlike, and intelligent. The creatives role here is to remind us in so many different ways to stop for a moment and witness beauty, to open our minds, to challenge our perceptions. For if we want to be robots, without thought, all grey and beige, then why has nature, an ever-changing expanse of colour, beauty and movement, an always changing canvas, such a place of solitude and solace for the creative spirit?What is my intention for doing all that I do? Why do I do this kind of work? What is my driving force?And the simple answer is all about creativity. The more I feel that we trust ourselves, the more that we understand ourselves, the more that free thought has room to flourish. Not only free thought, we start to question what is good for us or not, what is a yes or no for us and this opens autonomy, sovereignty of our body, our heart, our mind. How does knowing myself change the way I show up? Change my relationships? Change the work I put out?By trusting myself I have courage. By believing in myself, courage comes easily. Being courageous means that I easily can be vulnerable. Vulnerable with my words and actions. My vulnerability then allows others to feel safe. Safe for them to be vulnerable also, safe to express, safe to be creative. Seeing different ways of things, different perspectives, more perspectives than before. Our intentions are so powerful, our own imprint, our blueprint. The words we speak or how we act changes with our intention and our energy. The same sentence spoken can have a multitude of meanings with the intention and energy behind it. Intention and energy are felt, and are the truth of the words spoken. Everything is already held within consciousness, every thought, every idea, every invention, every love ever to exist here, now, past, future. All is held within consciousness, and your capacity for free thought and connection to consciousness allows your magic to interpret this information and deliver in such a way that is unique for you. When we believe in ourself, when we love ourself, this creativity just bubbles up from within us. This is freedom, this is flow state, you feel safe to express, you feel safe to share your magic. Writing is a part of my creative expression. When I am in flow with my writing, I sit here in my little armchair and I simply write the channel that is wanting to come through. My process is simple. I play my music, I make my tea, I close my eyes and feel into the seed planted of what the title is. The title always comes first, and then the subtitle. These roll around in my mind before I begin. I have no idea where the channel will go, or what reference the title means. I can have an idea, but more often than not, I am surprised as to what comes through. I write the channel, paragraph by paragraph without wanting to change or edit. I just get it all out. I step away from it, I let it simmer and mature, sometimes for a few hours, sometimes a few days. I never stop the flow of the channel for it to be ‘perfect’. Maybe after the pause I move paragraphs around, edit, add to it, but the channel always comes through so much more lyrical or poetic than anything my mind could formulate. I trust the process. I trust the message. I trust myself to get out of the way and let it all flow.Channeling consciousness, being in flow, means something different to each of us. It could be preparing the most delicious, nourishing or loving meal you can make for your family, you could channel which way is the easiest route while driving, you can channel while speaking, making art, music, writing. Channeling is a way of experiencing consciousness in that meditative state with your eyes wide open. When I write, it is freedom to allow my thoughts to be put to the side, my feelings freely expressed. They are wanting me to talk about my process here as it is helpful in the ways of journalling and beginning your path of writing, it’s helpful in the ways of recording your experiences.If a thought pops in (for instance about this creativity piece), when our belief in self, when our trust in self is strong, we start listening to our inner voice and our higher self, we start trusting in communicating with our heart, we love our mind, this is flow. This is alignment, this is our body in communion and union with consciousness. And so letting the channel come through or letting a thought pop in I kinda just stop and I let it sit, I let it expand, let it bloom and then I allow consciousness to write through me. It’s a process in understanding what works for you, how it flows through you. So say you have a thought, an idea… this is the seed. We want that tree to grow to full fruition. We think wow thats a great idea, and we try to take action on it but it’s still in sapling stage. Or you are trying to take action but it hasn’t yet fully grown, or you are trying to take action on it but the leaves and the branches haven’t spread, and the fruit hasn’t come to ripen. When the fruit comes to ripen, this is the moment of harvest. So perhaps you have an idea and that growth period is a day, perhaps that growth period is a week, perhaps that growth period is a year. It’s noticing and feeling into the idea and noticing what stage it is at. Knowing your process is key. The pause is paramount and the action of writing creates space. I hesitate banging on too much about writing but heck I’m a writer. I’m a writer! I have my book now live on amazon and if you can believe it, people are actually buying it and reading it. Crazy huh!The process of writing free… took two years from start to finish. On and off. Months writing it, months off, then it was complete. I kept fiddling with it, adding to it, editing it, giving it space to breathe, for me to have space from it also. Still now I could go back and change so much of it. But it carries the energy of my time before leaving Sydney, it carries the energy of while I was in Mexico and America. And in that time, I was a different person to who is here now. And so to honour that version of me and what I went through, I have tried to keep it as close to my energy and emotion from that time. Creativity is a life force within us all. It is built over time when we have trust and belief in ourself, and when we see ourselves as the greatest power in our life. That is not to say I am more powerful than you, or you more than me, it is more the understanding that I trust myself and my inner voice more than another. Recognising when you are asking for advice - is it the answer you are looking for or simply an audience? Sometimes, we simply wish to be heard. If we are asking the question, then we already have the answer. Inspiration comes in many forms. Notice when you feel most yourself, when you feel safe, when you feel at peace. Capture and express that feeling.There are a few things that have saved me over and over. Sunrise, the ocean and surfing, meditation, and writing. These four simple things have saved my life, my relationships, have opened my expression, how I feel about myself and the world we live in. My creative force is powerful within me without the need to prove or justify any action I have taken in the past. It’s as if my whole life I have been waiting for this feeling and now that it’s here, I feel so calm, so serene, so content. Whatever happens with how free… is received, who reads it, what they experience reading it is not in my control nor would I want it to be for art is an expression, and how that you receive the information and the story is completely unique to you.So my beautiful readers, supporters, friends and family, I hand all ownership of my book free… over to you for now my magic is in your hands, and no longer belongs to me. This life is a wondrous, magical gift, if we choose to see it soI love you x Nicole To purchase your copy of free… living your life free within consciousness simply click the link below xto purchase free… from Amazon USAto purchase free… from Amazon AUSto purchase free… from Amazon UKto purchase free… from Amazon CAN(if you are outside of these areas pls send a message and I can send the link directly)Nicole Forrest is a writer and teacher of consciousness, spirituality, meditation, and metaphysics. She is here to open the hearts of the world through her words and energy. Poetic & lyrical, Nicole makes it easy to understand the complexities of our human existence, and in our greater universe. That unexplainable feeling of knowing, hair standing on the back of your neck, how does the concept of intuition or consciousness fit into our everyday life? How can we harness our infinite power and intelligence? This is Nicole’s playground and she welcomes you with the energy and spirit of the curious child seeing the world through the lens of wonder.She is also a gifted channel, akashic reader and energetic practitioner based in sydney, ausconnect with nicole via her website hereto find out more about being a student connect hereconnect with nicole on instagram hereconnect with nicole via email here - nicolelovingearth@gmail.comconnect with Nicole’s writings here - Get full access to nicole loving earth at nicolelovingearth.substack.com/subscribe