As I say during the broadcast, I was having a hard time deciding whether I wanted to play ambient music or disco. So I played both. I have trouble with decisiveness, with finality.
To force a segue here, I am confident that someone like Morrissey would have hated this program, and that doesn't bother me in the slightest. This was the night after the day we Found Out (I guess?) about Morrissey through that horrible softball interview on his own website. Finally freed from wilful misinterpretation and journalistic malfeasance, he reveals that he...is Douglas Pearce, basically? Truly uncanny. Being an aesthete, I used to think Death in June was ripping off the Smiths' visuals; I didn't realize it was an exchange.
Hero worship will enable and force you to do some mental gymnastics, and to cling to mere possibilities. Saying that reggae is vile might have been a reference to its patriarchy and homophobia. It's possible that the chorus of "Panic" wasn't about lynching black people. There's a chance that "We'll Let You Know" and "National Front Disco" are not endorsements. [In my defense, this is more of a probability. But there I go. Or do I? I can't tell anymore.] And so on. But that's my problem all along. Post-1976 we are not supposed to have heroes, I guess, but I do. I've never "gotten it."
I could write a paragraph about when I got "woke," because part of me had to know, but who cares? I've been wrong.
Was he ever anything but "devious, truculent, and unreliable?" I would like to think that the person who wrote "Well I Wonder" and "I Know It's Over" was a great chronicler of loneliness. Even fascists get lonely! It didn't occur to me at the time that perhaps he was lonely because he'd preemptively ruled out the possibility of companionship with most of humanity. I'm still struggling with this reckoning. Those Smiths songs must have been the work of a different person. Right?! Sigh.
I would have been better off seeing Morrissey from the start as many of my friends did, as a Ridiculous Person. [And I did, sort of, but I just loved him anyway.] Or just being on Team Robert Smith, though I never quite understood that beef. But things didn't happen that way. As I've written elsewhere, the Smiths came along when I needed something to come along.
What to do now? I wonder if, after a few more similar interviews, Smiths records will become like Death in June records, a kind of eBay contraband. [I'm thinking also of Spotify's new policies regarding hateful speech and hateful behavior.] Probably not, I guess. But they are a kind of emotional contraband. Will I jettison mine? I told you I have trouble with decisiveness and finality.
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Cruising Altitude Departure 30, 2018 December 8
Songs About Bad People: Transmission 436, 2018 December 5
C'mon Queenie, Let's Get With It: Transmission 435, 2018 December 1
I Make My Own True Crooked Way: Transmission 434, 2018 November 28
U_D_M Detour 34, 2018 November 17
Daddy Goes Dancing with Mommy-O: Transmission 433, 2018 November 14
Feels Like Murder But That's Alright: Transmission 432, 2018 November 7
Cruising Altitude Departure 29, 2018 November 3
No More Worlds Like This, No More Days Like That: Transmission 431, 2018 October 31
U_D_M Detour 33, 2018 October 27
People Differ in an Absolutely General Way: Transmission 430, 2018 October 24
A Love Like Ours Is Rare: Transmission 429, 2018 October 17
We'll Be the Pirate Twins Again: Transmission 428, 2018 October 14
There's Always Danger in Your Dreams: Transmission 427, 2018 October 10
Sardonicus Keeps Smiling Till the End: Transmission 426, 2018 October 3
You Broke the World That You're Not Long For: Transmission 425, 2018 September 26
Can I Be You, I Don't Want To Be Me: Transmission 424, 2018 September 19
Dare To Live in Your Body: Transmission 423, 2018 September 12
Hold Onto Your Darkness: Transmission 422, 2018 September 5
If Your Heart's Strong, Hold On: Transmission 421, 2018 August 22
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