Merry fuckin’ Monday, vertpers and perverts! Emo-fuckin’-clew to the Be The Change Edition of Monday Morning Aural Sex! What could that title possibly mean? Well, sit fuckin’ tight and I’ll explain. Surely you’re all familiar with the quote that’s (actually mistakenly) attributed to Gandhi, “Be the change you wish to see in the world.” That’s basically what this is about. First of all, let’s review the piece Gandhi did write that comes close to that quote:
“We but mirror the world. All the tendencies present in the outer world are to be found ...
Merry fuckin’ Monday, vertpers and perverts! Emo-fuckin’-clew to the Be The Change Edition of Monday Morning Aural Sex! What could that title possibly mean? Well, sit fuckin’ tight and I’ll explain. Surely you’re all familiar with the quote that’s (actually mistakenly) attributed to Gandhi, “Be the change you wish to see in the world.” That’s basically what this is about. First of all, let’s review the piece Gandhi did write that comes close to that quote:
“We but mirror the world. All the tendencies present in the outer world are to be found in the world of our body. If we could change ourselves, the tendencies in the world would also change. As a man changes his own nature, so does the attitude of the world change towards him. This is the divine mystery supreme. A wonderful thing it is and the source of our happiness. We need not wait to see what others do.”
Solid enough, right? Well, some of you may not know, but Gandhi had actually quite a number of not-so-honorable qualities such as racism and sexual misconduct. There are a number of articles about it on Google, so look ‘em up if you’re ever curious. Regardless of how the reality of him was inconsistent with the mystique of wisdom and moral authority ascribed to him during his life and especially posthumously, there’s still ample value in the idea of being the change we wish to see in the world.
Many of you have been suffering my frequent political posts over the past few weeks, no doubt. Truly, I wouldn’t be bothering with all that if I didn’t strongly feel like we all have a shot at a better future with Bernie Sanders. I spoke in the edition posted two weeks ago about my own reasons for supporting him, but my god, there are so many reasons beyond those which would benefit me. It’s absolutely bananas to me that anyone has to try so hard to sell people on ideas like guaranteed healthcare, education, rapid reform in regards to climate change, etc., but I digress.
This isn’t meant to be a political edition, even though it does have a couple politically-charged songs. Even if Bernie ends up not being the nominee, the absolute worst thing we can do is despair back to apathy. Apathy is a cancer, and frankly, a luxury almost none of us can afford any longer. I say that we all need to get more involved with local elections. I say that we all need to get more involved in our communities. It’s so easy to be pessimistic and/or cynical. Believe me, I know it through and through. It’s a daily struggle for me probably much like it is for many of you. The most damning thing is that frame of mind is the most conducive to the stability of the current power structure that keeps all our necks under the boot of greed and myriad other awful bullshit to which greed gives way.
Greed is one of the biggest things that separates us from each other, making us believe that (at best) we can only ever look out for ourselves. Listen, speaking as someone who has a long history of being betrayed and treated like utter garbage, I can tell you that even our best efforts sometimes yield no results, or at least none like those we feel our best efforts should yield. Some people really are just utter shit, and life is too short to try reforming all of them. You’ve just got to say a little prayer, flip a lil’ bird and be on your merry fuckin’ way.
So, maybe you tried being the change, and you got shattered. So have I, perverts and pervettes. I’ve been shattered so many times, I don’t know how the pieces keep coming back together to resemble anything like anyone I once was, but they fuckin’ do somehow. Perhaps it’s just that I’m well aware of the cycle of abuse being the sick reality it too frequently is. The abused will abuse, and so on, and fuckin’ so on. It has to stop somewhere, so why not with you? Why not rise above the piss poor examples shown to you and be the polar opposite? Why not at least attempt to inspire others? Shit, if in your perspective the world is far too great a scale in which to be any particularly significant change, be the change you wish to see in your household. Be it in your own heart. Be it in your own mind. If you take the time to do that work on your interior, and you conduct yourself with respect and compassion throughout your life, you will eventually see results. Maybe even revolution… *gasp*
That last bit was a political allusion, but nonetheless a pretty firm assessment, in my opinion. So, you might be curious what I’m doing to be the change. Well, how ‘bout this fuckin’ podcast for starters? Case in point, it’s now 3PM EST, and I’ve been awake for damn near 24 hours now due to a variety of stupid shit. I’m even more fuckin’ exhausted than I usually am when I’m doing this, and yet here I am doing it just to ATTEMPT to share some sweet fucktacularity with all your tender little ear holes. Furthermore, do you perverts realize that I spend $240 annually to host this shit on Podbean? I’ve been spending that amount (or close to it) since January of 2012. I’m not tryin’ to brag or lament that; just sayin’ that’s how much I care about the attempt (the ATTEMPT) to share awesome music with you.
Sure, I could probably find some free method somewhere somehow. I could just post individual songs on my social media stories or feeds, yadda yadda. This podcasting effort feels more effective and appropriate to my goals of simply making mixes for my own yojnement and that of any beautifully curious souls who choose to join me for any little while. I truly love any and all of you who’ve listened to me even for a minute, despite the fact that I don’t do this for anyone’s validation. That was something I used to get hung up on because it often felt so lonely finding all this wonderful music that fulfilled me so profoundly, spurring me on to new discoveries, experiences, insights and appreciations, and yet feeling like I had no one in my life who cared.
Let me just say that the world feels pretty fucking small from the silent darkness of your room. It feels even smaller when you have depression bearing down on you year in, year out. You’ve gotta realize that so much of our darkness is nothing but a wretched series of misperceptions. I’ve gone as far to call them flat out lies, because that’s often what my logic has proven them to be. If you find yourself wrapped up in feelings that the world is fucked, no one gives a shit, I challenge you to step outside. Step outside and go somewhere you’ve never been. Discover something new, and the more you do that, the more you see how your depression shrinks your own life around you like a fuckin’ encroaching abyss, and that it’s just not all that accurate to think that way. Again, the more you work on your interior, the more likely it’ll be that you see an improvement on your exterior.
Any-fuckin’-way, whatch’y’all say I quit my fuckin’ yammering already and we get on with the yojne, hmm? Whatch’y’all say ‘bout ‘dat?! I know whatch’y’all’d say:
“Um, okay. Whatever.”
No, I don’t. I don’t know whatch’y’all’d say. I just know what I hope, and what I hope above all hopes is that you simply. fuckin’. yojne…
01 NIOEH x K.HƯNG x MIN x ERIK - Ghen Cô Vy (from https://youtu.be/BtuIL3oArQw) [00:05:53]
02 D.O.A. - Fucked up Donald (from Treason) [00:08:56]
03 The Glitch Mob - Can't Kill Us (from Love Death Immortality) [00:10:06]
04 The Prodigy - Medicine (South Central Remix) (from The Day Is My Enemy (Expanded Edition)) [00:14:57]
05 SwuM, Idealism - Dreaming (from Dreaming) [00:19:35]
06 SWARM - Void (from Void) [00:22:02]
07 Dani Mari - Drifting (feat. Fear Club) (from Vampire) [00:25:52]
08 Telomic - After Hours (from Gravity Within) [00:30:17]
09 GRAVEDGR - BE WARY (from BE WARY) [00:34:19]
10 Boondox - Dead of Night (feat. Bukshot & Young Wicked) (from Dead of Night) [00:37:25]
11 Abraxis, Crystal Skies, Dimibo - Night Rider (from Night Rider) [00:41:44]
12 clipping. - Body & Blood (from CLPPNG) [00:46:46]
13 Doctor P - Fuck The Speaker (from Animal Vegetable Mineral, Pt. 2) [00:51:14]
14 Cunninlynguists - Violet (The Upper Room) (from Rose Azura Njano) [00:54:19]
15 HIGHSOCIETY - LFG (from LFG) [00:58:05]
16 filous - Feel Good Inc. (feat. LissA) (Gorillaz cover) (from Feel Good Inc.) [01:01:40]
17 Igorrr - Parpaing (feat. George "Corpsegrinder" Fisher) (from Parpaing) [01:05:28]
18 Ekoh - Love Yourself (feat. Cameron Dettman) (from Love Yourself (feat. Cameron Dettman)) [01:09:03]
19 Dimension, Culture Shock - Love To Give (feat. Billy Lockett) (from Love To Give) [01:13:03]
20 Blake Anthony - Flaus (feat. Daryl XL) (from Black Anthony) [01:16:22]
21 Zeds Dead - Ether (feat. Deathpact) (from We Are Deadbeats (Vol. 4)) [01:18:02]
22 John Lee Hooker - Boogie Chillen (Take 2) (from Boogie Chillen) [01:22:06]
23 VCTMS - Gutted (I'll Spill) (from Gutted (I’ll Spill)) [01:24:53]
24 SWARM - Eat Me Alive (feat. Soundr) (from Eat Me Alive EP) [01:27:26]
25 Panda Eyes - Think Different (feat. Gabriel Guardian) (from Think Different) [01:32:07]
26 BT - Atari's Lantern (Extended Mix) (from Atari’s Lantern) [01:36:54]
27 Lord Finesse - Hip 2 Da Game (from The Awakening) [01:44:00]
28 Flux Pavilion - Saviour (feat. Tasha Baxter & Kaleidoscope Orchestra) (CRaymak VIP Remix) (from Saviour (CRaymak VIP Remix)) [01:47:57]
29 Parov Stelar - Brass Devil (from Brass Devil) [01:53:09]
30 Metrik - We Are The Energy (from We Are The Energy) [01:57:01]
31 Zanoii - Break Through (from Break Through) [02:01:38]
32 Degs, Pola & Bryson - Sleepless (from Sleepless) [02:04:37]
33 Landon Tewers - Excrete (from Ai640 Pt. 3) [02:09:05]
34 t+pazolite - Messed Up Gravity (from Messed Up Gravity) [02:11:47]
35 Night Lovell - Still Cold / Pathway Private (from Red Teenage Melody) [02:17:13]
36 Seven Lions - Only Now (feat. Tyler Graves) (from Only Now (feat. Tyler Graves)) [02:21:42]
37 Isorin - OMNI (from OMNI) [02:25:07]
38 Koven - Butterfly Effect (from Butterfly Effect) [02:29:02]
39 Jack Rainey, York - Fiction Ain't A Friend (Steve Brian Extended Remix) (from Fiction Ain't A Friend (Steve Brian Remix)) [02:32:29]
40 Twiztid - Never Change (from Never Change) [02:38:33]
41 Camellia - Rip It Off (Now) Rip It Off (feat. kradness) (from Rip It Off (Now) Rip It Off) [02:42:19]
42 Noah Kin - Scapegoat (from Scapegoat) [02:46:31]
43 Omnia - Generation (Extended Mix) (from Generation) [02:49:43]
44 Pete Flux - Success (feat. Parental) (from Traveling Thought) [02:53:58]
45 Richard Devine - Plonked Spectral (from Risp LP) [02:58:13]
46 Andre Damar - Westside (from Westside) [03:05:37]
47 Gareth Emery - You Are (feat. Emily Vaughn) (from You Are) [03:10:48]
48 Ekoh - Ms Humpty Dumpty (from Ms Humpty Dumpty) [03:13:57]
49 The Amity Affliction - Forever (from Everyone Loves You… Once You Leave Them) [03:17:44]
50 The Chainsmokers - Family (feat. Kygo) (from World War Joy) [03:20:50]
51 AG - We'll Be Free (feat. nilu) (from We’ll Be Free) [03:23:59]
