Pizza and Fairytales: Ep 3 Love is Wanting

1975 and 76 represent a pivotal moment for John Lennon, and his choices at this juncture determine his fate in his final years. Episode Three is a deep exploration of John’s ongoing inner conflicts: his lasting trauma over the Beatles breakup; his susceptibility to Yoko’s continuing mind games; his predilection for jealousy and insecurity. 

All this, plus the long shadow cast by the nightmarish Primal Scream Therapy John underwent at the hands of Arthur Janov. It’s a topic which usually slides under the radar of Beatles discourse—until now. AKOM’s hard, probing look at Janov reveals his therapy’s catastrophic effects on John’s psyche and on the Lennon-McCartney relationship. 

Ultimately, John chooses not to revive his partnership with Paul McCartney in New Orleans. How does this alter the course of their renewed relationship? And how does John's eventual descent into depression, paranoia and superstition alter both his feelings for and perception of Paul?

TW: Psychological abuse, homophobia

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SOURCES
Loving John, MAY PANG (1983)
John Lennon interview w/ Alan Freeman (January, 1975)
May Pang, The Beatles’ Biggest Secrets BBC doc (2004)
Linda McCartney: A Portrait DANNY FIELDS (2001)
“Arthur Janov, 93, Dies; Psychologist Caught World’s Attention With ‘Primal Scream’” by Margalit Fox, NEW YORK TIMES (Oct 2, 2017)
“On Homosexuality as a Normal Variant of Human Sexuality” (Sunday, January 8, 2012)
“On Becoming Homosexual. Is it Becoming?” (Saturday, May 23, 2009)
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John & Yoko Interview w/ Howard Smith, (January 23, 1972)
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Francis Schoenberger, SPIN MAGAZINE (1975)
Letter 204 to Rick Sklar dated July 1975, The John Lennon Letters (2012)
Home cassette, recorded for Vin Scelsa at WNEW-FM (Autumn, 1975)
Interview w/ Elliot Mintz (January 1, 1976) 
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Paul McCartney w/ Jay Cocks for Time: McCartney comes back. (May 31st, 1976)
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PLAYLIST
Helen Wheels WINGS
Tennessee (demo) JOHN LENNON
Letting Go WINGS
Bridge on the River Suite WINGS
San Ferry Ann WINGS
Let Em In WINGS
Love JOHN LENNON
Beware My Love WINGS
Call Me Back Again (live) WINGS