Silencing a Thousand Barking Dogs: Muzzling Mental Mania - Episode 8: God Shock Part 3
Bryan continues in what was the prologue of the book “Silencing a Thousand Barking Dogs”, which inspired this series at the start of this episode. He talks some more about the focalized experiences that seemed to happen outside of him, but the shift in awareness was really taking place inside him. He references Eucharistic Adoration that was dear to him at the time, the experiencing of Pure Presence (Real Presence) in the Blessed Sacrament held in a monstrance on an altar. Bryan spent many hours and months in Adoration, and later came to realize that the Christ Presence on the altar that he seemed to “feel” was really an activation and a recognition of the inward Christ Presence within him. So, the outward Presence led him to a greater interior reality, and to experiences of “Light Transmissions” (later he wrote a book and set of audio recordings published and released by this very title - for more information go to bryanrice.org) and continuous “Holy Tears”. These tears or the primal joy was experienced through a yielding into the Divine Presence by bringing himself into intimate union through the celebrating of Mass (not the traditional understanding of Mass as a sacrifice, but nonetheless, the “Holy Meal”). He says that everyone can experience the type of joy he refers to in their own way through other means such as devotional forms like Bhakti Yoga, to name one.
Bryan then shifts to what it was like after his glimpse of Eternal Bliss, when he had to go back down into the world, so to speak, and ground himself. He mentions having withdrawn from the world before returning to it, spending a great deal of time sifting through all the emotions and information attained in a recluse-like manner, avoiding engaging in outward relationships for quite awhile. Bryan spent a lot of time in silence, expressing himself in bursts of what he later came to know as mania, as understood by worldly psychological systems that resulted in an outpouring of massive life-size puppetry, art work, the writing of poetry, books, screenplays, and music. But he later had to come to grips with the reality that his recluse state could not last. He admits to having had trouble finding the Divine Presence in ordinary life experiences involved with other human beings. He attributed his creativity to the awakening of Kundalini Desire Energy at the base of the astral spine in the “Inner Edenic-state of Fruitfulness”, which he will get more into in a later discourse. Bryan refers to teachings of one of his gurus Paramahansa Yogananda, a Christ-like Hindu who came to the west, when he said there was a purpose to Moses raising up the golden serpent in the wilderness to heal the Hebrew people who had been bitten by snakes. This biblical imagery is rich, Bryan says with esoteric symbolism and related to Kundalini Desire Energy in an outward symbol, a way the people could understand in their consciousness at that time in the evolution of awareness. Again, in a later discourse he will explain the meaning of the saying “The Son of Man must be raised up like Moses did the golden serpent in the wilderness” (ordinary human consciousness must be transcended into divine knowing or “Gnosis”).
Bryan tries to make listeners understand how someone who experiences a “Radiant” “Divine Experience” can come to be identified as neurotic, psychotic, even obsessive, and having mood swings and disturbances in personality, to further seem to manifest Schizoid-like/Schizophrenic-like and Bipolar like symptoms. Using references to activity in the chakras, imbalances in Kundalini energy, and citing what is commonly understood by mystics as “The Dark Night of the Soul”, Bryan attributes his “post-realization” experiences to this period of necessary humbling and even integrating and balancing within the astral and physical anatomy, the influx of spiritual energy he received.
Bryan said back in 2011 when this was originally recorded, that he is going to dedicate his life to teaching others to become enlightened. But he makes the point that attaining enlightenment is not “a quick fix bliss experience”, that there is more to it, that it is a process of “finding” and “losing” the treasure we try to protect (that of Divine Realization). Bryan says the purpose of his being swept away in the “Red Sea” like experience was one of death to his ego and learning to come to terms with all the negative, spiritual “life” threatening capabilities that stem from identifying with the ego.
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