anxiety, paranoia, & existential ocd simulation

*new upload schedule: every monday and friday... still midnight thought (for the aesthetic)!

i find myself adrift in scripted musings unraveling fragments of a restless mind while questioning the universe, existence, and the prison of self-awareness. shadows lurk, paranoia whispers, and meaning dances on the edge of absurdity. join me as i explore the unsettling, dissect solitude, and stare into the void, hoping it stares back—because connection is fleeting, but wandering is eternal. topics in today's episode: existential musings, borderline cringe, overanalysis, therapy as a concept, mental health doubts, depression, anxiety, isolation, social media struggles, neet lifestyle, overthinking, self-awareness, hyper-body experiences, maternal entrapment, intimacy dreams, crows as omens, numerology, surveillance paranoia, childhood baggage, diagnosis skepticism, manic epiphanies, squirrels as spies, podcasting as catharsis, dark humor, raw vulnerability, life’s false promises, and the futility of answers.